billymesh063
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Personal Life Struggles and Stuff
🕑 Added 2020-12-02 01:37:57 +0000 UTCTo my dear followers and patrons.
Thank you very much for supporting me for all these months! Your amount gave to support me is very crucial for my check-up to the hospital.
The month of November is perhaps my biggest tragedy of my life. First, I lost 4 patron supporters, 2 are most dear in me. It us my fault really, but I felt the lost hard.
Second, I am still knee-deep on commissions, and I deeply apologize that I was not able to attend the Patreon Rewards which should already been done months ago. I over-estimate my capacity of making artworks and now I am been in a tight situation with those commisions at hand. As one saying said, "Doing Everything Achives Nothing", and I do regret all the things that I have done. So I am now focusing on one commission at a time to finish them. In fact I do work in the RWBY image set to completion as fast as I could, then proceed to another one from Digimon Tamers. Update of the RWBY is on the way today. Also to mention the two comics that I am working as well.
Third is the most hard of all problems in my life, and it affects me and my doing artworks. I do feel this occasionally before since I got Tinnitus in my ear for over a year already, but this end of September then November hits me hard. I searched on the net and I believe I have Visual Vertigo paired with suspected Cybersickness, and it really hampers me in doing artworks. I really don't want to talk about this, but I guess it is best for all of you to know. The feeling that you are in an earthquake or in motion while sitting in front of a computer screen, it causes me anxiety. It really freaks me out and slows me down. You feel like in motion when you aren't is not good. That is why I am heading for a specialist today. I am not so sure for the results but I hope to be cured. And your pledges will help me to pay for the expenses.
I don't want to write a lengthy post but I think I did it. I will post an update on my check-up. Please help me for the best. I am rrally slowed down because of this sickness. I hope things will soon be better.
Comments
Kmoney454
Well, there's the aspect of complete fabrications within my perceptions of reality, but what tends to be more problematic is the warpin' of said perception. The former is usually pretty blatant and overt, meanin', I can work towards reasonin' out what circumstance would make more sense to be actually happenin'. The latter however, makes it difficult to discern whether or not my understandin' is bein' altercated at all due to it bein' subtler and more believable. It's rough to work through a distortion of reality when I'm uncertain as to whether there is one, y'know?
Oh my, your condition is even harder, and I understand it. When you get anxiety it is also like thinking of stuff that isn't actually there or true. Your condition is very hard and by that I am in awe that you cope with it. As far as I can understood on my prescription, it seems to be directly to the ear ringing so far. I still have the ringing though minimal now with the prescriptions taken. But after I take all of the prescribed drugs I am told to go back to the hospital for analysis .
Kmoney454
Oh, and thank ya much for lettin' us know a bit of what's been goin' on. I know that, personally, it ain't always easy. Should ya wish to chat ( 'bout this or just for silliness or whatnot), I'm here.
Kmoney454
Whether or not ya wish to speak, know that your are not alone. Life can get rough, can get overwhelmin', but we get by by leanin' on one another. Much as we may be excited to see more of your work, I'm sure we can all agree that your wellbein' needs to be your priority. <('-')>
