See-saw, Margery Daw
🕑 Added 2025-02-01 23:19:21 +0000 UTCcleaning up some doodles from my notebooks and sketchbook, here’s one that didn’t really fit with the others
growing up can be an awkward process
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Lammergayier
Oh God it'd be Liv and Felix all over again......
Rumpeltyltskyn
God I’m so sorry you’re right that poor poor old man. He’s too old to find a new wife, what was I thinking!
Lopoddity
"Leave Merry" "realize her bisexuality" yeah all these questions are well and good and all but is anyone taking poor MERRY'S feelings into consideration? >:( My sweet boi? If Maple leaves him who's gonna hide his heart pills in a bit of cheese for him every morning??
ErrorVittra
I'll try to do so, hope you can find the right brush! Thank you so much anyway! :3
Lopoddity
I don't, actually. :( I've yet to find a brush in procreate I'm totally satisfied with. Try making your own, or importing brushes you like from other artists
Lopoddity
Honey would not exist in this AU, as Maple would've never had the affair with Merry. There would only be Maple and Toffee's daughter, Not-Honey, who would be sweet and peppy and so incredibly fucked up
Rumpeltyltskyn
So I seen you address Maple’s bisexuality: does she ever grow to address it (leave Merry, etc.) or is it something that’s always ‘repressed’ for her?
gamigami
c'mon Toffee, let her get a free kick in! for old times sake
WAr
I had that exact show in mind when asking that question! Those poor families. I know we’d all love to see a sliver of that AU if you ever care to doodle it! Poor Topher would probably be completely cut off from his brother in that AU too…. And poor lesbian honey would probably be worse off
Lopoddity
Are you asking if kind, sweet Toffee would use his best friend like that with little regard for her feelings? Yes, yes he would've. If things had been different, if Maple hadn't turned to Merry, if Toffee had been pressured more to settle down with a woman...yeah, he probably would've tried dating Maple to combat his wicked latent homosexuality. I've even thought about an AU where he and Maple get married young and conceive a knock-off Honey of their own. It's a terrible ending for them both, their marriage is bursting at the seams with denial and buried resentment. Basically like an episode of that one awful reality TV show "My Husband's Not Gay", where gay mormon men married women and had children and claimed to be happy, but everyone, the wives especially, just look SO damn miserable
ErrorVittra
You're very welcome! I'mma get an iPad with procreate very soon! Do you have any brushes you recommend if I may ask? :3
Lopoddity
Thank you! I use Procreate and an apple pencil to draw these days. :3 This was a ballpoint pen doodle that I lined and colored digitally.
Heather
Flash back to me and my gay twink boyfriend Shane We eventually figured it out xD
WAr
Would toffee have ever considered dating Maple (or any girl TBH) while he was still young and trying to pray that gay away?
ErrorVittra
I love your doodles! Do you have a FAQ of some sort where you explain the programs you use? :o NGL the Meadowsweets at this rate are gonna become my hyperfixation sooner or later adsfsgdhd/pos
Lopoddity
A couple years in the future: Toffee: Maple, I truly am sorry about grabbing you that one time- and for what I said to you. It was monstrous of me- completely unacceptable- and to this day I'm ashamed. No matter what my feelings were, I had no right to physically overpower you and frighten you the way I did. Maple: I mean...I don't know that you did, really. I was more startled than anything. I was hurt, I froze up. Looking back on it now... I'm not sure why I didn't put you in a headlock, or nail you in the balls. I could've. I didn't, but... you're just not very strong, Tobias. I probably could still do it. Toffee: Haha, but you wouldn't, right? Maple: Toffee: Toffee: .......but you wouldn't, right
gamigami
im only around 5'2 but even i feel like i can take Toffee and tie him into a pretzel with the way he's looking here
Scyllarus
Oof. I wonder how she deals with this with Honey - it's been mentioned that Honey disdained her mother for her anxiety/neediness, but I wonder how Maple took it when Honey first came out as a lesbian. She has to confront the fact that her sweet baby girl is...well, either confused or an angry feminist, and I'm sure that stance worked great with Honey. I'm sure Honey yells many things about how lesbians work - Does it ever make Maple think? Even if those are..."bad" thoughts?
MEllegoo
Maple reminds me of Beatrice Horseman. I want so much better for her, but I know how the story ends (although she still hasn’t died yet so…. Possible redemption arc???)
Lopoddity
Maple does pilates, has a twice a week spin class, and did yoga when she was pregnant with Honey. She later stopped because yoga often entails meditating with one's thoughts, and Maple would rather gnaw off her own arm than be alone with her own feelings of constant anxiety and general unhappiness. So instead she got into running. Bad thoughts can't catch her if she runs fast enough!
Sorceringingarts
OhhhhhhHHHHH this is so Good, do i love her or do i want to be her, the age old struggle of closetted people. Just trying to imagine Maple trying to "buddy up" or make peace with Eleanor after the whole divorce and pregnancy thing and Eleanor is not having it but Maple can't help wanting Eleanor's attention even if its the bad kind? something like that
mailebird
Oof this takes me back. I was also the bijock (who didn't realize she was bi) in a sea of twinks. I see you Maple, now go suplex your husband because we both know you can.
Lopoddity
AaaaaAAAAAH thank you so much! That means so much to me! 😭
Lopoddity
Ohhhh Toffee's blushing cuz he's embarrassed here, he's not feeling any romantic feeling for Maple. He feels skinny and a bit emasculated, particularly compared to Maple, who is fit and strong. Toffee is gay. He loves Maple as a friend, but that's it.
Emily Lemur
(Biscuit is typing…)
Lopoddity
Well, here's a fun fact. Maple is fixated on Eleanor, who of course hates Maple and blames her for her divorce. Maple thinks she wants to BE Eleanor, the original church first lady, who is always oh-so poised and elegant and beautiful. In reality, Maple is attracted to Eleanor. A lot. She perceives it as intimidation (Eleanor IS scary) and honest admiration, buuuuut. Well. For a time Maple might’ve had a very innocent fantasy where she and Eleanor would finally become friends, good friends, close friends, so close that they'd run off together and leave Merry behind...
chey esquivel
I just saw this lah! Disregard the question about her sexuality. Gah...Lop you have done it again, being relateable via showing religious trauma and growin' up down South. Funnily enough, when I was younger, I messaged you on deviantArt about being a queer, poc, non-religious (closeted enby at the time) and how your work helped me overcome a lot of my internalized homophobia, misogyny, transphobia, casual racism, etc. 12 yr old felt comforted and heard. So please know your work really connects to a lot of people, and ya really inspired my writings/work. Particularly the psychology of characters, I'm a neuroscience major so I took a lot of psych classes. It dawned on me the other day that I remember you had said something AWHILE back on your tumblr about your degree and taking several psych courses. So in another way, really affected not only my growth as a person, but my future, career prospects and artistic endeavors. Thank you Lop!
Madeleine McCoy
Hey Lop, my investment in Fuzzbutts but also maybe particularly the Meadowsweets rivals and love for any mainstream Fandom I have. Toffee brings me to tears by existing, Topher is quite literally ny own self wish fulfillment, amd Honey is my sweet problematic sunshine girly pop beloved redneck lesbian. Thank you so much for your work you are truly sensational
chey esquivel
lovely work per usual! Just wondering, is Maple closeted and does Toffee fall somewhere else on the spectrum (homoflexible, etc.) or is he just attracted to 'masculinity' or 'masculine' traits/behaviours in the traditional sense. I'm not sure how to quite word this, I was curious since he's blushing and looks rather flustered 😭 Rather awkwardly/uneasily I'll add, I think that's the intention right? Last question: Is this before Maple developed her crush on him or no?
Lopoddity
She's not closeted so much as she genuinely doesn't know this about herself. She internalized a loooot of homophobia from her church, particularly the bit where gay men are seen as animalistic degenerates, whereas lesbians are either just confused (just need a good man to show them the way) or angry feminist types trying to rebel for attention. Maple doesn't feel either of these apply to her, therefore she's as a straight as an arrow. Besides, she's got a crush on a boy! A pretty, gentle, somewhat effeminate boy. A non-threatening boy, who Maple at least knows subconsciously will not pursue her sexually or treat her like a piece of meat. For Maple, Toffee is simultaneously a queer crush and an escapist fantasy from the misogynistic world she resides in. If Toffee were a girl, Maple would still have a big stupid crush, she just wouldn't perceive it as a crush. Just a totally platonic obsession about a female friend she invents reasons to touch and dreams about kissing. Normal gal pal stuff.
Sorceringingarts
omg maple is bi?? 👀 is there lore? more doggy family drama in the near future?
Angsty Ram
Loving Maple’s confused face, like girl what did you expect doing this with a man with whose frame rivals a twig? Bi jock Maple is also an absolute win. I know you’ve mentioned she did Volleyball but did she do any other sports? Does she still do any as she ages?
CJ Strahd
WAIT HOL UP BI MAPLE??? DID SHE REALIZE THAT LATER IN LIFE????? OR WAS SHE CLOSETED AND USED A SLUR ON TOFFEE BECAUSE OF IT OR SMTH??RHFHWBBFHFH
nighthawk0913
Maple is bi? Oh boy, now I can imagine her kicking Merry and his BS to the curb to elope with her newfound girlfriend
Gela
woah she’s bisexual i didn’t know that /ref
three thousand spiders wearing a trenchcoat
LMAO I love the shapes and colors on this one, merry’s dumb spindly body is so fun 😭