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Trying to laze around in the dance of dragons: Chapter I: Idle weight
🕑 Added 2024-10-05 00:58:05 +0000 UTCI remember dying.
That’s probably where the problem started. Not that I’d been particularly attached to life the first time around. I mean, it was fine, I guess—school, video games, pretending to care about exams when everyone around me was panicking about what the future held. Honestly, I didn’t get it. None of it seemed to matter. I wasn’t even eighteen yet, and everyone acted like the world was already closing in on them. Not me, though. Life was just a long, boring ride to nowhere.
Then I died.
And now? Now, I’m Monterys Velaryon, nephew to Corlys Velaryon—the Sea Snake himself, the great explorer, the man whose name rang out across all of Westeros. House Velaryon, the blood of old Valyria, proud lords of Driftmark. A house so high and mighty that even the dragons deigned to look our way. My uncle Vaemond? Dead. Murdered, really. And sure, he was an idiot for going up against Rhaenyra like that—calling her children bastards before the King and his homicidal brother wasn’t exactly a stroke of genius—but he was still family. Still blood.
The problem is I don’t really care.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I don’t feel anything. It’s just… I’ve already done this before. Living, I mean. Dying, too, for that matter. After the first time, nothing really seems to hit the same way. I go through the motions because that’s what you do, right? You’re born into a noble house, you pretend to care about politics, you keep your head down, and you don’t call the Targaryen heir a whore in front of the King. Basic stuff.
But here’s the kicker: I can control gravity. Fucking gravity. One of the primordial forces of the universe, the thing that holds planets and stars in place. And if I wanted to, I could flatten every single person in Westeros. I could take all their little games of thrones, all their endless scheming, and crush them under the weight of the very air they breathe. I could be king—no, God—if I wanted.
But I don’t.
It’s just too much effort, really. I just want to laze around all day.
*scene*
I sit at the edge of the harbor at Driftmark, my feet dangling over the edge, watching the ships bob lazily in the water. The salt air stings my nose, and the gulls above scream like they’re in some kind of eternal anguish. Appropriate, I guess. Driftmark always feels like it’s mourning something.
My uncle Corlys is off doing Sea Snake things, and the rest of the family is busy scheming—what’s new?—around the mess that’s about to explode between Rhaenyra and Aegon. I didn’t care about it before. Rhaenyra’s kids are bastards, everyone knows that, I used to think, but what’s it got to do with me? Not like the legitimacy of some dragon spawn makes a difference when the whole world could end if I so much as sneezed wrong.
But then Vaemond went and got his head sliced off for stating the obvious. Yeah, sure, the guy had all the subtlety of a brick to the face. I mean, calling Rhaenyra’s kids bastards and her a whore in front of the King—while his brother who was both the uncle and the husband of Rhaenyra. Daemon Targaryen, the king of casually homicidal maniacs, who killed his own wife stood there glaring daggers?
Genius move. Truly.
Still, he was my uncle. And something about imagining his head roll across the floor of the throne room just… I don’t know. It hit differently. Not enough to make me cry or anything—I’m not that soft—but enough to make me realize that the game I’ve been ignoring? It’s real, and it’s coming for all of us, whether I give a shit or not.
I flick a pebble into the water, watching it sink faster than it should, pulled down by a force I barely even think about anymore. Gravity responds to me like an obedient dog—always there, always ready to bend to my will. I could crush those ships out there, turn the harbor into a swirling mass of wreckage and bodies. But I won’t. It’s not like I’m some villain in a bad story. I just… don’t care enough to bother. Am I repeating myself? I honestly feel like I do.
Still, that doesn’t stop me from messing around. A small smirk tugs at my lips as I focus on the nearest ship, a modest cog swaying gently at its moorings. With a flick of my fingers, I pull it down, just a little. The creak of the wood as it strains against the unexpected weight is satisfying in a way that nothing else really is. The sailors aboard scramble to adjust the rigging, panicking as they feel the sudden shift.
I let it go, and the ship bounces back, the sailors looking around confused, probably blaming the sea or the gods or whatever peasants blame when the world doesn’t make sense.
I lean back, staring up at the sky. Westeros is about to explode in dragonfire and blood, and here I am, playing with ships like a bored kid tossing stones into a pond. Vaemond’s dead, and Driftmark is on the verge of falling into the same chaos that’s about to tear apart the rest of the realm. And me? I’m just watching, waiting for the inevitable.
Honestly, I don’t need to do much. Sure, Lucerys was the heir for now but he would die. If I was lucky, I wouldn’t have to do anything. Just enjoy the fireworks and take the spoils after. Work smarter, no harder and even in case things would go wrong, it wouldn’t change much.
Because here’s the truth no one knows: None of this matters. Not really. The game of thrones, the dragons, the power struggles—they’re just gravity. And I’m the only one who knows how to control it.
*scene*
I hear footsteps behind me, soft but deliberate. I don’t need to turn around to know who it is. Rogar, my brother, all regal and composed, always looking like he stepped out of some portrait of Valyrian perfection.
I'm sure that the guy trained the way that it walked.
“Monterys,” he says, her voice sharp like the crack of a whip. “You’ve been out here for hours.”
What I don’t particularly like about my older brother Robar is that he acts as if he was both my brother and my dad.
He seemed to have convince himself when we were young that he had to take care of me, that I was his responsibility after our mother died from complications from giving birth to me and our Father, Corly’s little brother died, his ship sinking.
I would find Robar admirable if he wasn’t such an idiot. He was older than me, a least 5 years and it didn't show.
Guy was an idiot. In the books, after Vaemond is killed by Daemon due to calling Rhaenyra’s children Bastards, my older brothers and his children went to Kingslanding to complain to Viserys.
In the books, it resulted in them literally losing their tongues by having them forcefully removed with hot pincers.
Rhogar would have been one of those idiots, one of the members of the silent five, Westeros ‘ first mute boyband.
Seriously, what must they have been thinking? Wasn't Vaemond enough of a warning? Even his children didn't call before mask of the opera, our rotting king Viserys, his beloved Rhaenyra a begetter of Bastards. At least, I would never have to deal again with Malentine Yapping.
I shrug, still not bothering to look at him. “What’s a few hours compared to eternity?”
He lets out an annoyed huff, the kind of sound people make when they don’t know if they should be mad at you or feel sorry for you. Rhogar is bad at thinking but at At least, he's good at that—feeling things. Too good, really. He cared too much honestly.
“We need you inside,” he says, her tone more insistent this time. “You need to be present when Rhaenyra arrives.” I could almost taste something bitter in his voice.
He probably hated that too but it seemed that he had finally understood that trying to deal with the Bastard’s problem was probably something he would be unable to.
Rhaenyra. The woman everyone’s losing their minds over. The one who started this whole mess by popping out kids that look nothing like her Velaryon husband. The thought would almost be funny if it weren’t so pathetic. Still, I feel a pang of something when I think of Vaemond’s decapitated corpse.
“Rhaenyra,” I mutter, finally sitting up. “Guess she wants to make a show of it, huh?”
Rhogar steps closer, her expression softening. “Monterys… I know you’re hurting.”
Am I or you are brother I thought. Am I or do you wish I did?
I stand up and stretch, feeling the weight of the world shifting around me. “I’m fine, Rhogar. Really. But sure, let’s go play the part.”
She frowns, not convinced, but what’s new? No one here really gets it, least of all Rhogar. They’re all too caught up in the drama, in the bloodlines and dragons and power. None of them see how small it all is. How small they are.
*scene*
Inside Driftmark, the halls are buzzing with tension. The lords and ladies gathered here all whisper behind closed doors, their eyes darting around like nervous birds. Everyone knows the *Dance of the Dragons* is about to begin, and everyone is picking sides. House Velaryon has thrown its weight behind Rhaenyra, obviously, but I can already see the cracks forming. Loyalties are fickle things, after all.
I stand in the corner of the grand hall, leaning against a pillar, watching the scene unfold. My mother, trying to keep up appearances, is engaged in some hushed conversation with another noblewoman. Rhaena, Daemon and my late cousin Laena’s daughter stands beside her, the perfect picture of poised nobility. And then there’s Rhaenyra herself—beautiful, proud, and completely oblivious to how fragile her world really is.
She catches my eye for a moment. I didn'know why honestly. It's as if we had talked in the past. I am far at least for now from being the heir of House Velaryon and I am almost as young as a her second son. Why me? I pushed down the annoyance I felt and offered a small nod in acknowledgement. I nod back, but it’s an empty gesture. She doesn’t matter. None of them do. Not when I could crush them all with a thought.
Not that I would though. Well, Maybe for now at least.
The hall grows quiet as Corlys Velaryon, the Sea Snake, enters, his presence commanding the room without even trying. He looks at me for a second—longer than usual. There’s something in his gaze, something that tells me he knows. Or at least suspects there’s something off with me I guess. I’ve never told anyone about my powers, but Corlys… he’s not like the others. After all, he probably saw through his travels things that would probably horrify most with how there were nods to Lovecraft's works in the world of Martin.
“Monterys,” he says, his voice low, but there’s a weight to it that pulls me in despite myself. “Stay close.”
I nod, not because I care, but because it’s easier that way.
Rhaenyra starts speaking, something about loyalty and blood, about how the Velaryons will stand with her in the war to come. She’s trying to inspire them, to rally them to her cause. But all I can think is how little it all matters. How none of these people will even be remembered in a few decades.
I was living with them and I didn't remember most of them.
Rhaenyra’s speech drones on, and the faces in the hall—lords, ladies, knights—are a sea of polite attentiveness. They all nod at the right moments, murmur their agreements, but I can see it in their eyes. Some of them hate her and don’t hide it well. Other of them are scared. They should be. The whole world’s about to go up in flames, and everyone’s just waiting for the dragons to do what dragons do: burn everything to the ground.
Me? I’m standing here, trying to figure out if I care. I could feel something about all of this, maybe. I could feel angry about Vaemond, or protective of House Velaryon, or whatever emotion I’m *supposed* to be feeling right now. But mostly, I feel detached, like I’m watching everything from behind some invisible barrier. None of it can really touch me.
I wonder, idly, what would happen if I lifted Rhaenyra off the ground right now. Just a few inches, nothing too dramatic. Would anyone notice? Would they all gasp, clutch their hearts, wonder if the Targaryens’ magic had gone haywire? Or would it be my little secret, the way gravity bends to me like a servant at my command?
A flick of my fingers, and Rhaenyra shifts ever so slightly in place, her feet barely leaving the ground. It’s subtle enough that no one notices, not even her. Just enough to amuse me for a moment, a reminder of what I can do if I ever decide to stop pretending like any of this matters.
I let her down softly, feeling the slightest tug in my chest as the power recedes. It’s funny, really—there’s a god in this room, and none of these people even know it.
*scene*
“Monterys.”
Corlys’s voice pulls me back, though his tone is calm. He’s always calm. The Sea Snake, unflappable, larger than life, the kind of man who commands respect just by existing. It’s the same tone he uses with me when he’s not quite sure if I’m listening or if I’m lost in my own head again.
I blink and turn toward him. “What?”
He gives me a long, unreadable look before his gaze shifts back to Rhaenyra, who’s finishing up her speech with a dramatic flourish. Something about bloodlines and fire. It all blurs together.
“I’ll need you with me in the coming weeks,” Corlys says quietly, his voice low enough that only I can hear. “War is coming, and House Velaryon must stand united.”
There it is. The family loyalty talk. The same one I’ve heard a hundred times since I was a kid in this world. Family first, blood above all. Valyrian blood is everything. I’ve never been sure how much of that I believe, given that my whole existence here is basically a cosmic joke.
“I’ll be around,” I say, shrugging. It’s the kind of answer that makes him narrow his eyes, but he doesn’t push.
He knows better than anyone that I don’t bend easily, not even for him. He’s probably the only person who doesn’t treat me like I’m just some kid. Also, it became easier to deal with him after Both Laenor and Laena died. Trauma for the win I guess. I think, deep down, he knows there’s something different about me—something more than being the youngest son of his youngest late brother.
*scene*
The rest of the evening is a blur of formalities. Rhaenyra holds court, flanked by her sons, who wear the Velaryon sigil as if they were born to it. I look at them—Jacaerys, Lucerys—and all I can think is how obvious it is. They’re bastards. Even a blind man could see it, and yet everyone plays along because the truth is a dangerous thing in this world. Vaemond learned that the hard way. Still, it grates at me, the way they carry themselves with all the arrogance of dragonlords, as if the whole realm isn’t laughing behind their backs.
By the time Rhaenyra departs, the tension in the room has coiled so tight I can practically taste it. The nobles leave in small groups, each one casting furtive glances at each other, as if every face they pass might belong to a future enemy. No one says it aloud, but the air smells like war.
I slip out as soon as I can, making my way through the empty halls of Driftmark. The stone walls feel colder than usual, like the sea’s creeping in through the cracks. Everything feels heavy, pressing down on me in a way that’s… irritating.
Outside, the night air is cool, the sky a deep blue-black, dotted with stars. I find my usual spot near the cliffs, overlooking the sea. The waves crash against the rocks below, endless and indifferent, just like everything else in this world. If I concentrate, I can feel the pull of the water, the way gravity tugs at every drop, every stone, every person. It’s all connected, all part of the same force.
Sometimes I wonder if this power is supposed to mean something. If maybe I’m here for some grand reason—destined to reshape the world or some crap like that. But every time I start thinking like that, I remember how little it all really matters. People live, people die, and the world keeps spinning. I'm not so self entitled to believe that the world actually revolve around me even with powers
I sit down on the cliff’s edge, staring out at the sea, and let the weight of the world slip away. For a moment, I toy with the idea of shifting the gravity around me, of making the entire ocean pull toward the sky, lifting it up like a great sheet and watching it spill into the heavens. The thought amuses me, but that’s all it is—a thought.
“Monterys.”
Rhogar’s voice cuts through the night, and I turn my head lazily to see him walking toward me, his valyrian silver hair blowing in the wind, face full of concern. Of course, he'd come looking for me. He's annoying like that.
“What?” I ask, my tone flat.
He sits down beside me, looking out at the sea with a sigh. “You’ve been avoiding everyone.”
“Have I?” I shrug. “Didn’t notice.”
He looks at me, her expression softening. “I know you’re hurting over Vaemond.”
“I’m not.” I repressed myself from sighing. Again with that?
I truly didn't care that much. This was the truth. Those people around me were pages of a book given life. They weren’t truly family to me or at least, they didn't feel like this to. They were more like roommates in a sense I guess. More than that, Vaemond was an idiot. And while his death was violent and kind of ridiculous, it’s hard to feel anything more than mild annoyance.
“He got what was coming to him. Should’ve kept his mouth shut.”
Rhogar frowned “He was still our uncle.”
“Yeah. And he was still an idiot.”
There’s silence between us for a while, just the sound of the waves crashing below. For once, he’s saying silent. It seemed that he could learn with enough time. Maybe that’s why I don’t mind him being around.
Eventually, he speaks again, his voice quieter this time. “Do you think we’re ready for what’s coming?”
I glance at him, raising an eyebrow. “You mean the war?”
He nods, her eyes flicking back toward the sea. “Rhaenyra’s children… they’re not… Velaryons. But we’re expected to stand by them.”
“Expected, yeah,” I say, leaning back on my elbows. “Doesn’t mean it’s smart.”
His face twists with worry. “You don’t care, do you? About any of this?”
“Nope.”
I could feel his frustration, it was palpable, but he didn't snap at me. Instead, he looked down at his hands, clasped tightly in his lap. “I don’t know how you do it,” he murmured. “How you stay so… detached.”
I wanted to chuckle, to make him understand how easy it is when you know nothing really matters. I didn't. I couldn’t blame him. He hasn’t seen the world the way I have. He hasn’t died before. Our experiences were too different, we were too different. The only thing we truly shared together was a name and blood.
After a few more minutes, he stood back up, brushing the dirt from his pants. “You should come back inside,” he spoke. There was in his voice a hint of sadness. He sounded like a kicked puppy, not like the proud scion of a noble house.
I waved him off lazily. “I’ll be in soon. Just… need a moment.”
He hesitated, but eventually turned to head back toward the keep. I watched him go, his figure fading into the darkness, and once again I was alone.
Alone, with the weight of the world in my hands. And all I can think is how small it all feels. How trivial.
Alone with the power of shaking this world yet feeling as if something was missing.
I closed my eyes, letting the cool air wash over me, and reached out with my mind. I tried to lose myself in it, in he pull of gravity that was everywhere, in every stone, every star, every drop of water, the one that could make me could reshape the world if I wanted to. But I don’t.
“I’m just not interested,” I whispered to the ocean yet this time the words tasted in my mouth like ashes, blood and bitterness.
