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you're just imagining it - release & post / 今後の活動について
🕑 Added 2024-03-31 02:27:34 +0000 UTCupdating to add that this game will now be coming to steam on november 6!! it'll be free on there as well with a bunch of new languages so please give it a wishlist!
【更新】11月6日にスチームでもリリースすることになりました！itchと同じく無料配信になります。
スチームリリースに向けて新しい翻訳も用意しているので、ウィッシュリスト登録をお願いします～
https://store.steampowered.com/app/3224310/youre_just_imagining_it/
(英語の下に日本語版があります)
for #nanoreno2024, i made a game about getting diagnosed with a chronic illness because i was recently diagnosed with a chronic illness. or well, to be more specific, an intractable genetic disorder that is the cause of my chronic pain & exhaustion. i am now taking medication to delay the need for surgery.
game: https://npckc.itch.io/youre-just-imagining-it
i decided to make a game about it as a way to sort out my feelings about the situation as well as to announce that i'll be recalibrating my game dev activities a little. i've been advised by the doctor to avoid high physical/emotional stress because i need to keep my heart rate low for my health, so i want to lower my workload for now until i know how much i can handle. (i'm also not supposed to have caffeine or alcohol any more, alas!)
in any case, these are my plans for now:
- i'll probably have fewer releases for the next while as i focus on trying to finish my bigger projects to let myself rest. my new medicine limits my heart rate which is good for my health but also leaves me very lethargic still & it's hard for me to work at the same pace. (current focus is Marron's Day as well as updating translations for released games.)
- i will probably continue online events since they don't require too much actual moving around, but i will be at fewer offline events while i consult with my doctor about how much physical exertion is safe for me to do right now.
- douZINE activities are paused until i feel like they won't be emotionally stressful for me. (previously a past collaborator made posts to harass me online and also harassed me & my partner offline at an event, which caused me to have panic attacks.)*
- i will continue to update patreon regularly as i always have (monthly updates, postcards, bonus content), but if i need to pause that for any reason, i'll put payments on pause as well.
i still haven't quite processed everything, to be honest. i'm glad i know now, since it's better to know & be able to manage it then not know & find out after a health scare. but i don't want to let this completely uproot my life - i only just quit my job less than a year ago to become fully indie (and i'm very grateful i've been able to keep this going so far!) and i don't plan on changing that.
i wanted to share this though since the support from everyone here on patreon as well as from everyone who plays my games/leaves reviews/&c. means a lot to me. thank you, seriously! also, my inbox is open as always for people who want to chat about game dev. i will continue to make games & to support other people who make games. i hope you'll continue to enjoy my games as i figure things out 💜
*i was informed by some well-meaning people that the person harassing me has made new posts about me since i made this post. while i appreciate the kindness, for my health i give this person a wide berth both online and offline (even if they do not extend the same courtesy), and i am not interested in knowing what they are doing - i have not initiated any interaction with them since 2022. i already know what i need to, which is that it is best for my physical and mental health to not interact with them. i am supposed to keep my heartrate low for my own safety and this situation has been very bad for that, so please forgive me if i don't respond to messages about this 🩷
【日本語↓】
最近、指定難病と診断されたので、自分の気持ちを整理するために難病診断ゲームを作りました。
ゲーム➡https://npckc.itch.io/youre-just-imagining-it
医者さんによると、生まれつきのもので不治ですが、薬で手術の必要性を遅らせることができます。肉体的・精神的ストレスを避ける必要もあるらしいです。（カフェインとアルコールも控えないといけないのでちょっとしょぼんです！）
ということで、これからどうすれば良いのかとか、今後の活動について色々考えていました。ずっと支援してくださっている皆様にもちゃんと共有したいと思って、このブログでまとめようと思いました。
・開発に関しては今までのペースより遅くなると思います。今飲んでいる薬は心臓を制限させることで安定させているそうですが、副作用で体力もだいぶ落ちています。とにかく今はマロンの日などの大きいプロジェクトに集中しながら開発していきます。
・オンラインイベントは今まで通り参加すると思いますが、オフラインイベントの出展は減るかもしれません。運動制限があるので、長時間のイベントに関しては先生に相談してから再検討します。また、元共作者にオフラインとオンラインでハラスメントを受けたため、精神的なストレスを避けるために同ZINEはしばらく休みになります。※
・Patreonに関しては今まで通りの運営になると思いますが、もし変わったらPatreon上の支払いの受付を一時停止します。
正直言うと、診断されたことは結構ショックで、まだ信じきれていないところがあります。でも、知らないまま突然死する方もいるらしいので、とにかく診断されてよかったと思います。これからは気をつけないといけないことが増えるのは確かなんですが、だからと言って今までの人生を全部変えないといけないとは思いません。去年仕事を辞めてフルタイムインディーになったばかりなので、こんなのでやめてたまるか！って気持ちです。
と、まとめると、今後の活動は少し変わりますが、方針自体に変わりはないです。前より時間がかかってもゲームはずっと作っていきたいし、他のクリエイターも支援していきたいです。ゲームをプレイしてくださっている・レビューとコメントを残してくださっている・Patreonで支援してくださっている皆様にも本当に感謝していますし、その気持にちゃんと答えていきたいです。itchどう使えばいい？やSteam登録難しい！などのゲーム開発に関する質問なども相変わらず受付中なので、気軽にメッセージ送ってください。
ということで、今後ともよろしくお願いします🙇
※この記事を投稿したあとにまた新しい誹謗中傷が投稿された、と私のことを心配している方々から報告が時々来ます。私を思ってくれる気持ちはありがたいのですが、自分の健康のためにハラスメントをしてくる方はできるだけオンライン・オフラインで避けるようにしています。向こうから来るときだけ仕方なく対応している感じで、基本的には2022年以降私のほうから接する行為は取っていませんし、今後も接する予定はありません。心拍数を上げすぎると危険なため、このような過剰なストレスになりかねない件に関してはお返事できないことが多いので、ご了承いただければと思います 🩷
Comments
npckc
thank you! 💖😌
robobarbie
Rooting for you!! Take all the time you need!! Love your stuff no matter what.
npckc
ohh that makes me really happy to hear! i'm glad you are enjoying scaredy cat dungeon 🥺
Chloe
Be kind to yourself. Your work has meant a lot to me, and friends continue to covet my Scaredy Cat Dungeon. 💖
npckc
thank you!
Udina
Take care <3
npckc
thank you, and i'm sorry it took so long but i'm glad you were able to figure it out despite the doctors not listening to you!
npckc
ありがとうございます！🙇
Goblin University
Take care, and take your time. I can't speak for others, but personally I'm sticking around no matter what. You really did change my life those years ago with One Night Hot Springs, and have brought us all so much joy with your creations. Slow down however much you need, and best of luck with the eventual surgery. ...and if it's any consolation, I understand to a degree. I have a quite rare form of schizophrenia. took years to figure out what it was, everyone just said it was stress or needing to sleep better or something. then a while to find a treatment that worked. Not exactly the same, but I definitely understand doctors trying to brush your problems away as not being real.
ddd
KCさんのゲームのファンなので、時間がかかっても楽しみに待つことができます。無理せずのんびりで大丈夫です。
npckc
thank you 💜
DDmeow Games
Take care!
