BabaVader
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Hey y'all, life is stressful
🕑 Added 2023-02-01 18:18:35 +0000 UTCYou may have noticed the lack of a promised chapter the last few days. And the frequent delays even before that. I want to say I'm sorry. I would like to be able to keep up but truth is, it's just not working right now. I'm very stressed between finding a new place to live and preparing for exams. My writing process includes a lot of mental preparation. I don't plot out things on paper but I think about the scenes I want to write before I sit down, usually. I just couldn't find the time to do so the last few days. I know conceptually where it's going but I can't figure out the details.
Beyond that, the real issue that's overshadowing everything is my lacking finances. It's not that I'm broke but Patreon is basically everything I have left after my usual bills. Which means, this is paying for food. That adds another layer of stress. I didn't write about this before the end of the month because I didn't want to guilt-trip anyone into staying here. I'm not delivering. Also, my parents won't let me starve. If I really run out of money, I can ask them and they will help.
What does that mean? Owl chapters are now on an Exterminatus-schedule. For those who haven't read any of his work, it means they're out when they're ready. I just need the freedom in my schedule to do the 'real' work, even though writing is the only thing that pays right now...
I plan to remedy the situation and give me more freedom but if I don't do my exams, I might as well quit university. Which I don't want to do. So it'll take a while to get everything settled. If you're a yearly sub, I want to give two chapters per week as I originally promised when I enabled that option. I will probably not make that this month. Instead, I will start uploading my Pokémon fanfic to Patreon late February. It's gonna be up on RR sometime in April, probably. That way, you'll have something to read at least.
That's another thing, I'm lacking inspiration for Owl because I know most of the things that'll happen until it's finished. So my brain mostly thinks about other stories when it can spare the processing power. There's a serious consideration of finishing Pegasus Nebula during March/April and getting a publisher. It's a book that will be shorter than what I still plan writing for Owl.
Now, that's mostly what I wanted to talk about. I hope you can forgive the lack of content. I know Patreon (especially with my price structure) is primarily 'I want to support this creator' rather than 'buying a book' but it still feels terrible when I can't deliver on my promises. I simply can't manage right now. If you want a refund of this month's subscription after reading this, send me a DM. I'm willing to accommodate you.
That's it, for now. I wish you the best, wherever you are. Life may be stressful but it will get better.
Cheers.
Comments
Fabio Murtas
Hi Baba, I'm all on "Author Support" side, and I think it's normal to have to prioritise most important things. I hope you can relieve your stress and restart your writing soon. Ciao, Fabio.
