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🕑 Added 2023-12-03 09:24:44 +0000 UTCPart I
When I started writing for this post, I didn’t expect it to be a large volume. Therefore, I decided to split the resulting text into two parts. The second part will be in one of the following posts.
Continuing my thoughts that I may have Autism Spectrum Disorder.
I understand that this Patreon page is dedicated to 3D models mainly from The Lord of the Rings, and the following reflections stray from this idea. In this regard, please let me know if you don’t really like this topic, I will understand and will not be upset :)
This is very important for me and I want to understand how I can improve and optimize my life.
I have already expressed my thoughts several times on the topic of my personal methods and characteristics in work, and shared this with you. Perhaps I said earlier that in my city I did not find decent psychiatrists and I do not trust all the remaining ones. I decided to figure it out on my own until I have the opportunity to contact a qualified specialist, most likely no longer in the country where I now live. I found a test that will help me understand this better, and once I do it, I will share the result with you if you are interested :) If you are curious, here is the name of the test: Ritvo Autism and Asperger Diagnostic Scale (RAADS-R). Judging by the way it is characterized, it is quite good and does not give false positive results for depression, for example.
So, let me begin.
Many of the nuances of my behavior and interactions with the outside world that I observe and analyze are very similar to signs of Autism Spectrum Disorder. For example, doing something unusual is very painful for my psyche.
Analyzing all this information, I realized that I can exist most comfortably when most of what happens around me is cyclical. I feel better when I know what I have to do that day.
And I decided to create a plan for myself every day in order to know exactly the time and order of my affairs.
I can’t foresee everything, I understand that, but I have the power to control my actions.
I have a real diary, where in the morning I write down my schedule for the whole day, hour by hour.
For me, this discovery was not very pleasant at first. But after some time, when I tried to live with this approach, I began to feel a little calmer in this world.
I’ll pause here and tell you the rest in the second part :)
Comments
Marrion 3d
What you said is close to my view on these things :) Categorization or labels don't matter to me. The most important thing for me is to understand what exactly is going on in my head, to find a name for it. So that I can then use tools specifically designed for my situation that will help me interact better with myself. If I had not started to suspect that I might be on the spectrum, I would not have thought of trying to incorporate daily planning into my life on my own. And now that I tried it, I feel a little better :) Therefore, I intend to continue to deal with all this, with the help of a qualified specialist, if I find one, or without him. In the end, I don’t plan to bring self-diagnosis to the use of medications, but I just want to find methods that are suitable for me in order to improve my life :)
Wim D.
I can relate to the need to be able to put a ‘label’ on the things you feel or on the seemingly different way your own brain seems to operate. It can definitely provide some comfort but more importantly it may open the door to new ways of handling the things you experience (even though everybody is unique and what works for one might not work for someone else). Whatever label we, our environment/society or the medical world puts on us, remember it is just that, nothing more. A categorisation of behaviour or a type of cognitive processing. To me, in the case of depression, the spectrum, ADHD,,… that’s not good or bad. It just is, the person cannot be blamed for it, and it can be worked with to help that person lead a good and happy life. And there’s always gradations, it’s called a spectrum for a reason. Which is also why it’s nothing more than a label created by humanity, we like to do that. But these things aren’t black and white. The list of famous, successful and wonderful people with a form of autism is long, just check Google. I am a little concerned about self-diagnosing though. It’s a pity you have no experts near you that you trust. But to me online tests, no matter how detailed, can never form a true and full picture. Since it is a spectrum, there are so many nuances involved, and things like body language, speed of reply, etc. can all give a trained professional much more useful information I think when diagnosing things like this. If you are at a stage where you really need clarity and some support on the topic, I would say please keep trying to find a psychologist/psychiatrist that you trust.
