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❗MUCHO TEXTO LIFE UPDATE (GOOD ENDING)❗
🕑 Added 2024-11-13 06:00:11 +0000 UTC(screaming lenny art: @roobzmakesstuff )
Hi everybody! Happy- checks calendar -FFFFUCK
Oh boy.
Okay. I'm not doing the whole "🥺👉👈 h-hi guys you don't hate me do u" shtick because that's really not my deal, but I am sincerely sorry about not posting and I am eternally thankful to every one of you who've stayed subscribed through all of this. I'm permanently indebted to all of you for continuing to support me, because you've kept "financial ruin" off of the shit-pile through which I've been digging for the past few months.
I have had a hell of a shock to my mental health since August, in which almost every major psychological or emotional problem I've failed to deal with in the past ~3 years has suddenly hit like a freight train. Sorry if that sounds cheesy or dumb, but I genuinely don't know how else to describe the way it's felt. The result has been a complete failure to get work done, leading to missed deadlines, which then lead to me feeling worse, which meant further failure to get work done... 🔁 ...further compounded by how difficult it is to do any form of creative writing when your brain's in the shit-can. Luckily, I saw my doctor two weeks ago and turned what was supposed to be a 10-minute prescription re-up into a 1hr+ sob session. Unloading to my doc helped, plus he changed my prescription, and I'm (tentatively; trying not to jinx it) seeing some improvements.
I've been active on the Discord and slightly active on my Twitter, but I've neglected to leave any updates here or interact with comments and that sucks. Often, "facing my audience after numerous missed deadlines and an overall lack of content" feels like an insurmountable barrier against even OPENING patreon, for me, because it reminds me of how much I've failed to get done, which makes it harder to get things done...again: 🔁
I'm trying as hard as I can to get things put back together again, I really am. I already mentioned talking openly and honestly with my doctor, and I've been trying to rebuild connections with family and friends to put myself in a better headspace. I'm trying to get back on the horse, because I genuinely love doing my job and I miss doing it consistently and doing it to my personal standard for quality. And to be clear: I'm not posting this to get sympathy or "headpats" or whatever, nor am I trying to form some kind of parasocial personal bond with all of you - I'm just trying to be open and honest about what's been going on so that you can be informed and (hopefully) understand that I'm not disappearing or whatever. I'm still doing this as my full-time job, and I'm NOT permanently cutting back on content or anything of that sort.
So where do we go from here? Well:
I'm finishing all of the Halloween audios and that other two-part from the August schedule. The scripts are written, they're getting done.
All the scripts I've written since June are going up soon. I've just gotta export and format them correctly.
I'm not releasing a proper schedule for November. November is "no stress, no deadlines, all catch-up" month (However I'll also try to do something fun for Thanksgiving, because honestly the hawaiian rolls audio was peak and I crave that kind of insane energy lmao)
I want December to be a "return to normal". I'm talking weekly Wednesday/Saturday uploads, back on the grind, etc.
Streaming will ONLY resume once I'm comfortably back on track. Audio content is my #1 priority: it's why you're all here, and it's what pays the bills. Streaming is more of a casual hobby, so it doesn't resume until I'm getting my actual work done. Expect possible occasional one-off wacky streams for special events, like my last-minute not-quite-fully-IRL stream on election night.
I'm doing my best to get back on top of things, I swear. Perhaps more importantly, I'm trying to be more transparent and open with y'all so that you don't think I've stopped making content or died or something.
I'm just trying to get back to normal, y'all. Love all of you for sticking around through all of this, and I can't wait to make more audio roleplay or asmr or audio porn (or whatever you wanna call this stuff) for you 💜
PS: Don't be surprised if you get another curveball a la the "ground control" audio in the near future. sometimes I make the stuff that I need to hear. just bear with me and I'll go right back to confessions and dorks right after I promise lolol
Comments
Grublin
No stress November, I like it! Glad to see you back and glad that you’re seeing improvement! ❤️🩹 very much relate to how you’re feeling in this post, wanting to be transparent and honest but also no wanting to be coddled or pitied. I’ll just say this, your post has set a positive example for others. Be the change you wish to see in the world ❤️🩹
OvO Hoot
I'm glad you're doing better. If you need some time off, that's fine, just be transparent about it. We don't need details about why but we do want to know what to expect.
JoJo76
You are amazing. Thank you for the updates. There is so much work that goes into this and you deserve breaks too. I hope you can rest and feel supported.
SunsetMaple
Thank you for the update. I appreciate it. I was concerned but hoped you were doing ok. I'm glad to hear that you got what you needed and getting better. You got this.
Christiana Elaine
Thank you for updating us! I was honestly worrying about you often, so I’m grateful to know that you’re doing what you can to take care of yourself! As someone who struggles with mental health a lot as well everything you’ve said is completely understandable, and I’m glad you feel movement in a positive direction. I hope you continue to find support, comfort, and understanding in the people in your life, as well as here. <3
Whitekitsune
I’m so glad your doing better and no rush on getting things done, your mental health comes first and foremost ❤️🩹 sending much love and support your way
EsoTerror
The can't mentally face how behind I am; making me more behind snowball is real! lol I think most of us have been there(I know I have). Glad your back, don't stress yourself too much.
ashley christine
You’re doing a really great job 🩷
Yuki H.
Please don't stress yourself and hopefully you will recover soon. If you're still not feeling well in December, it's better to rest even longer. Your health comes first
HollyS
I'm glad you were able to see your Doc and that you're seeing positive developments with your new meds. That's great news! I totally relate to how you're feeling. When you get behind, the missed deadlines and the subsequent feelings of guilt and anxiety from missing those deadlines make it hard to get back into it. So just take your time and ease yourself back into your routine. I'm sure we would all rather you slowly return to normal, instead of burning yourself out. I've always enjoyed your audios because they're original, creative, fun, and excellent quality. You put a lot of time and effort into them and it shows! But you can't pour from an empty cup, as they say, so please take care of yourself first. We'll be here as you get back on your feet! <3 (Also, please tell Lenny and Fanta I said hi! :D)
Kayla
That feeling of anxiety that compounds on itself is the worst and I wish you every success in getting things regulated. I went through a period where I was behind on my thesis prep class and the idea of opening my email was unimaginable because my professor might have emailed me. So good luck!
Amanda
The important thing is that your getting the help you need. Keep it up and take it easy. ❤️
Lilac Tea
I know that feeling of mental exhaustion and just trying to clear your headspace. Do what you gotta do.
Karina ~ Stirret
I'm new to this whole ASMR thing. I found you last week and subscribed immediately. Your work is amazing, because it's not just cheekiness, there's a funny story in every audio that makes me smile, laugh and feel happy. I haven't gone through all your content yet, but even if I had, I would keep supporting you, waiting for you as long as it takes. I love how transparent you are 💜 And now I feel closer to you. Thank you for sharing this.
Elle ✨🎶
I’m so glad you’ve taken the time to take care of yourself cause that isn’t easy!! There’s no rush to do anything and do whatever you can at your own pace. 💜
BabyPink
Wow man are we the same person? It sounds like we have exactly same struggles ngl... so you are not alone x) hang on! And perhaps slow down with pumping audios a bit, you are doing a lot!
vixxy
ooooh welcome back ♡ so glad to hear from you, please take your time, don't rush things, we'll stay here supporting you! i think most of us can relate, and we won't blame you for putting yourself first ♡ sending lots of love and support 🤍ྀི
hazel
"whatever you wanna call this stuff" LMAOO we love to hear it (pun intended) 😌 thanks for being transparent and realistic!! hope things will get easier for you soon. hawaiian rolls send message
Felita Reed
Bruh, totally get it. You’re good even if you DON’T get back on the grind right away because that shit is hard. Take care of you for as long as you need to. I’m sure a bunch of us are happy to listen to old audios until you’re fully ready to bounce back.
Alicia Pérez Gil
Hey there, I totally get where you’re coming from. As a writer dealing with mental health issues myself, I know how hard it can be to just push through and keep going. I honestly dread writing these types of messages too, because when I do, it’s usually a sign that I’ve already found my own motivation again – and sometimes the encouragement people send my way doesn’t quite hit the mark. But I still wanted to reach out to show my support and let you know that I’ll be here through this recovery period.
Skyler Sheridan
You’re good! I figured something was up! I’ve been in the same boat! I’m glad you’re taking time for yourself!
Zaphirite
Hell ye hell ye let’s get that shit (that shit being the stability you’re recovering and getting back on the horse) and glad to see you doing better lately!
Bello Phaw
Send love to you! Glad to hear that you are okay, thanks for the update. And i hope you not stress yourself too much, go within your own pace. You doing great 🤍
Jade_Cinnamon
so real honestly. much love from AZ!💙
CorsicaLyn
Completely understand where you're coming from. I've been there and it is not easy. Whatever you need to take care of you, we're good ❤️
Juniper
It's good to hear that you are doing better mentally💜
AnxieTea
Glad to see an update, and very happy that you're getting your mental health on track. Catch up on things, but don't put too much pressure on yourself to get everything done at once. Sending a virtual hug your way.
sundayzed
Sending you a lot of love, I hope everything runs smoothly for you going forwards!!! Don’t stress yourself out, we’ll be here 🩵
LS
do whatever you gotta do to fill your tank up my guy! you got this!
Kettle
Wishing you all the best!!
Solandji
So proud of you and all you do! Will always be here to support you 🤩!
Nana~
Dont stress yourself hun! Youre doing good 🫂
May B
Sending love!! 🫶🏽🫶🏽 mental health is hard to navigate and we all have to go through it at different paces.
Christy
Give yourself some grace, conquer one day at a time at the pace you feel comfortable with. Mental health is a marathon not a race. Hope you get to feeling better soon love 🖤🫶🏼
Sophie
I’m just glad you’re doing okay! Thank you for the update 🙏
Castiel
The Hawaiian roll audio always comes back to mind when November hits because of how chaotic it is, and as someone who can forget sometimes the simplest things (have I taken my meds, have I eaten) I think it says a lot about how memorable some of your content is
LH Roxory
Love to see the mental improvement. Fuck it up, Whispurr 🎉
yoshu.
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