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Man Makes Plans, Fate Corrects Them
🕑 Added 2024-03-28 10:29:54 +0000 UTCHello, everyone!
You might have noticed that the work I've promised has been postponed more often than either of us would have liked. I'm reaching out not with excuses, but with a spirit of transparency and honesty, hoping to share a part of my life and the unpredictability that has recently shaped my endeavors.
In the dance of life, I've often moved forward to the rhythm of what I believed were self-made decisions. However, recently, I've begun to realize that, in the end, I frequently find myself submerged in outcomes I hadn't chosen. Most of the challenges in my life often stem from external circumstances. However, I’m not looking to place blame on anyone, even if it might seem that way at first glance. Please, hear me out.
Family life, especially as an Asian or as a Thai man, can be challenging. It has become a tradition for the oldest son to 'carry the team' in the later stages of life. But believe me, this particular 'carry' has been grappling with BPD since high school. F* it. Allow me a moment to vent. The prevailing belief seems to be that raising a child simply means equipping them to become an adult in the physical sense, focusing on all those 32 body parts. But what good are my fingers if I can't find happiness? It feels like there's so much more to life and well-being that's being overlooked. One contradiction that has stayed with me from childhood is being advised against drinking alcohol, while witnessing both of them indulging to excess almost daily. So, in my own twist of irony, I've found my own solace in getting high.
Even with my alter ego taking the spotlight, the real me is still calling the shots. So, I decided to hit the brakes and take a hard look at my personal life. Honestly, without that introspection, I’d just be an empty shell, starring in my own series of gloomy days. But guess what? Things are starting to look up, mood-wise.
Oh, and here’s a fun fact for you: I nearly worked myself into, let’s say, a less-than-ideal situation down there—yeah, almost faced the ED music because of my work marathon. I mean, talk about a wake-up call, right? LOL.
I’ve got this thing with obsessing over quality improvement. Bet you saw this coming a mile away, huh? This obsession is a double-edged sword—it slows me down... and yeah, you called it. I’ve been wasting precious time making sure the trees in my project look as real as possible. Why, though? Seriously, why? I apologize for getting caught up in the details. I’ll keep this lesson in mind and work on finding a better balance. Here’s to not getting too lost in the forest (or the trees) again!
But if you're thinking I should give up on using AI altogether... nah, that's not happening. It’s all about those incredible details it brings to the table—or, in this case, to Airi’s face:
This post turned out longer than expected—remind me to do this more often. Sometimes I forget. But don't worry, I'm still here, working away as always. In the meantime, enjoy your days and all the games you love. 'Dark Magic' is making progress, bit by bit.
What I want to know is... Do my stories make you feel happy?
Please don't give up on me yet. Thank you for your patience, as always.
See you again soon...
Comments
Dubsington
I enjoy your work, and I've been following you for years now. Keep on keeping on.
lkoor
Very interesting. Glad you shared, and yes, your stories make me feel happy. I hope you can feel happy making these stories and keep the "dark magic" in your life.
Scott Guy
We all face our own demons in our own way. Glad you're still around and can't wait for the next chapter both in Dark Magic and your life! Keep being strong!
