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It's all about me, isn't it?
🕑 Added 2025-04-02 08:34:26 +0000 UTCGreeting, my fellow citizens of Dark Magic.
Today, I’m going to talk about the game—without actually talking about the game.
I want to talk about me.
Because to be transparent about this project… I think I also have to be transparent about myself.
I’m not ready. Honestly, I don’t think I ever will be.
But here I am.
I started making adult games because I love playing them. Simple as that.
Back then, it was my escape—from a world where I had to please everyone but myself.
Where I grew up, it’s not something to be proud of… to admit you have sexual desires. To even accept that part of yourself.
And me? I have a lot of that desire. Buried deep inside my body. My heart. My balls. Yeah, I said it.
You’ve probably guessed it by now—
I’m going through a personal crisis.
And instead of hiding from it, I’m here to face it. Because I have nowhere else to go but here.
Since the start of the year, I’ve seen so many people set “new year, new me” resolutions.
I had none. Not because I’m better, but because… I didn’t even know what I wanted.
Turns out, that became my most important resolution—
To find out what I truly want.
So these past few months, I’ve been searching. While also trying to heal.
And what I’ve realized is this:
My perfectionism is just a mirror, reflecting my deepest insecurity.
I want my work to be perfect, because deep down, I feel like I’m not enough.
I get stuck. Stuck on where to stop. Stuck on what’s good enough.
Because I want my work to be worthy—worthy of your support.
And without you, I wouldn’t even be here.
So from the bottom of my heart—
Thank you.
I need your support more than ever.
Running away from this inner war is scarier than the earthquake that just hit.
But I’m not running anymore.
Let them laugh. Let them insult. Let them talk shit.
This is what I want to do.
So to the voices that tell me to quit?
Fuck you.
I only make art.
With love and madness,
—F.Lord
Comments
Dubsington
I don't know what crisis you are facing, but you obviously have a fighter's attitude to it. You're gonna be okay.
ImGladIMetYou
This isnt normal porn but i couldnt figure why. Guess i shouldve started calling it art a long time ago. Thanks for being here. Beloeve it or not ypur games helped me in some dark hours man. Im grateful to you and your work ❤️ I wish you great success and fullfilment in life
