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Everything Meant Nothing | Part 2: The Night He Made Me His
🕑 Added 2025-06-19 11:15:02 +0000 UTCAll characters depicted in this story are fictional and 18 years of age or older. Everything portrayed is safe, sane, and consensual.
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Part 2: The Night He Took My Virginity | Summer After Him
I sit there on the porch, journal in my lap, staring at the words like they might rearrange themselves into something easier. I can’t tell if I’m writing to remember him or to forget him.
My phone buzzes again.
This time, I don’t ignore it. I glance. It’s Cal, my best friend.
Pack, bitch. London waits for no one.
I smile. Barely. Then shove the journal into my backpack, push open the front door, and head back inside.
My room’s a mess. Suitcase open, nothing inside. Outfits scattered like a clothing bomb went off. I try to fold a hoodie, then stop. It's his hoodie. The gray one. The one he was wearing the night he....
I drop it on the bed and sit down hard, palms against my knees, chest tight. I’ve been putting this off all day. Not the packing. Not the leaving.
The remembering.
Because some memories deserve to be left untouched. Like museum glass, you don’t press too hard. You just stand there and admire, and ache, and move on.
But I can’t move on until I go back. One more time.
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My eighteenth birthday.
Luke didn’t say it was a date. Not out loud.
He texted me the week before. Said his parents were flying to Hawaii for their anniversary. Said he’d have the whole place to himself. Then he added:
Don’t make plans Friday. I’ve got something in mind.
I told him I had work that night. He told me to call out. He never asked like a boyfriend would. Never begged. Just said it like it was obvious I’d come. And he was right.
I wanted to. God, I wanted to.
I’d never told anyone how badly I wanted that night to be something. Something more than just a hookup. More than sweaty palms and stolen kisses and unspoken rules. I wanted to be his, fully. I wanted it to mean something. Even if we never said the word love.
Even if we weren’t a thing.
When I got to his house, the lights were dim. One lamp in the living room, the big one by the fireplace. He opened the door in sweats and that gray hoodie, the sleeves pushed up. His hair was messy, like he’d showered and let it air dry.
“Happy birthday,” he said, soft smile on his face.
I don’t know what I was expecting. A dumb card? A wink and a blowjob?
Instead, he let me in and everything smelled like cinnamon. I figured it was a candle, but then I saw the plate on the coffee table. A slice of cake. From that café. The one I kept mentioning but never thought he actually remembered.
He lit a single candle and said, “Make a wish.”
I looked at him. This beautiful, frustrating, impossible boy standing there with cake and my favorite movie already queued up. And I wished for him.
Then I blew out the candle.
He didn’t touch me at first. Not during the movie. Not even when our legs touched under the blanket. We just sat there by the couch, side by side, me trying not to freak out, him pretending this was just a chill hang.
Halfway through the movie, he turned and looked at me.
“Been thinking about this for weeks,” he said.
I turned to him. “What?”
He reached out, brushed a thumb against my cheek.
“This.”
And he kissed me.
Not like he did in the locker room. Not like behind the shed or in his truck after practice. This kiss was different. Slower. Focused. Like he had nowhere else to be. Like I was the only thing that mattered in that moment.
His hand cupped my jaw. His tongue was warm and slow and soft. My body went weightless. When we pulled apart, I think I whispered, “Why are you being like this?”
He didn’t answer. Just took my hand and stood up.
He led me to his bedroom.
I’d been there before. We used to play Xbox on the floor, eat snacks, argue over game scores. But now everything looked different. The bed was made. The curtains drawn. The room quiet in a way that felt intentional.
He shut the door and turned to face me.
“You don’t have to do anything you don’t want,” he said.
“I know,” I replied. But I didn’t pull away. “I want to.”
My hands were shaking. My heart was racing. But I wanted this. Him. All of it.
He kissed me again. Harder this time. And I let him.
We moved slow. Carefully. His hands slid under my shirt, lifting it over my head. Then his. I could barely breathe. His chest was tan and broad, muscles flexing slightly every time he moved. I reached up to touch him, fingers trailing along the line down his abs, and he hissed in a breath.
“You sure?” he asked, again.
I nodded.
“Never done this before,” I admitted. “Like… all the way.”
He stepped closer, kissed my temple. “Me neither. With a guy.”
That made something loosen in my chest. I wasn’t alone.
He laid me down on the bed and climbed over me, straddling me gently, his weight heavy in the best way. We kissed for a long time. Tongues brushing, lips parting, hands learning each other’s skin.
He didn’t rush. He undressed me piece by piece, looking at me like I was something sacred. I tried not to hide my face. Tried not to flinch when I got exposed.
“You’re gorgeous,” he whispered. “I’ve wanted this for so long.”
I moaned when he kissed my chest. My stomach. The inside of my thighs. Every part of me felt like it was waking up for the first time.
When he pressed a lubed finger inside me, I gasped.
“Just relax,” he said, voice low, mouth against my neck. “I’ll go slow.”
And he did.
Every step of it, he was careful. Asking. Listening. Adjusting. Until the moment he finally slid in slowly and my whole body arched under him. It hurt, at first. But I wanted to take it. I wanted to feel him like that. Closer than anyone had ever been.
He leaned down, forehead pressed against mine. “You okay?”
“Yeah,” I whispered. “Don’t stop.”
And he didn’t.
He rocked into me gently, then deeper, the bed creaking softly beneath us. My legs wrapped around his waist. Our hands tangled. Our breath synced. He kissed me through it. Held me through it. Made me feel more real than I ever had.
I came first. Messy. Silent. His name bitten into my lip.
He kept going, moaning quietly, sweat on his back, jaw tight. When he came, it was with a grunt and a kiss against my neck, his hands cradling my face like he never wanted to let go.
After, we lay there. in nothing but our underwear. Tangled. Silent.
The only sound was our breathing.
I thought he’d pull away. Make a joke. Say something to undo the softness. But he didn’t. He kissed my forehad. Tucked the blanket around us. Wrapped himself around me like I was home.
“You okay?” he asked again, quieter this time.
“Yeah,” I said. “Better than okay.”
He smiled into my hair. “Good.”
I fell asleep with his arm across my stomach and his breath warm against my neck.
It was the first time I felt completely held.
The next morning, he made pancakes. Burned them, of course. We ate shirtless at the counter, legs brushing, shoulders bumping. He acted like we were something. Like I was his.
Even if he never said it out loud.
And for a while, I believed that maybe we could be. That the world would bend for us. That maybe, if we just kept choosing each other, we could make it work.
I was wrong.
But that night...that night...I wasn’t.
That night, he was mine.
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I blink out of the memory.
Back in my room, the clock ticks past 2AM. I’m sitting on the floor now, knees tucked to my chest, Luke’s hoodie beside me like it’s waiting to be worn.
I pick it up. Bury my face in it. It still smells faintly like him. Like that night.
Like the version of me I don’t know how to let go of.
Tomorrow, I leave for College.
Late night flight. Three checked bags and a heart that still doesn’t know how to pack this away.
I zip the suitcase, hoodie carefully packed at the bottom.
One last thing of his.
And maybe, that’s all I’ll ever get.
Everything Meant Nothing | Part 3: The Last Time I Saw Him
Comments
BeachDude
Love it!!!
Troy
Thank you man <3 Part 3 should answer your questions hopefully.
PeninsulaBoy
Different style and equally enjoyable. Beautiful, more emotionally charged. I want to know more about Luke. Does he know what he's doing to Troy? He seems to care about him; there's something we're not seeing yet. Can't wait for this to unfold.
Troy
Aww Jon <3. Hugs to you man. I don't have an ending planned as of now... But, rest assured, things will change in Arc 2. (Part 4-6). You'll get to see some cheesy stuff.
Troy
Thanks dude <3 I am really enjoying writing this too.
Jon
I’m tearing up, my heart is breaking for Troy😢. Loving this story. Really looking forward to reading more and hoping for a happy ending.
Craig
Wow! This was freaking beautiful. I am really liking this story! Great work Troy.
Troy
Thank you Chris <3
Christopher Lucas-Taylor
That was sweet and beautiful.
Troy
Thank you! <3 Please don't judge me but I haven't seen that movie :P This scene reminded me of Elena from TVD lol. The first Arc is heavily inspired from that. (Yeah, I'm a basic bitch liking TVD lmao)
robert
Very powerful him holding on to the hoodie reminded me of Brokeback
Troy
Part 3 is already written and scheduled for tomorrow. I have finished brainstorming Parts 4-6 (Troy's college life). Parts will release next week. So glad you are enjoying this series Adam.
Adam
Omg please keep going with this
Troy
Yay! So glad you are enjoying it. Arc 1 "Summer After Him" ends with Part 3 tomorrow. We'll later see Troy in the UK.
J
Oh my gosh how sweet what a wonderful first time. My heart actually hurts for Troy poor guy. I can’t wait for more
Troy
Thank you <3
Michael
That was beautiful.
