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August spice
🕑 Added 2025-08-31 23:24:00 +0000 UTCAugust spice contains two very different mini shoots hahah as you can see by the previews!
One out in nature with a tomboyish emo vibe and the other a cozy fairy bed aesthetic!!!
Dont read past here if you dont care about a yap/vent session. ❤️
Both unfortunately were shoots i was super hype for thought i had the idea just right for! But i will be honest my energy is not there and my camera hated me.
Like i previously said august was not kind to me between family and friend issues
It was extremely hard to be peppy and exude an air of sexiness or even feel it.
To put it briefly
When you decide to open up to one of your closest friends, (which is a very hard thing for you to do) who knows you very deeply, about your manipulative narcissistic abuser and then a week and a half later you catch them in a fucking crazy lie they told you because you find out they started DATING said abuser after giving you so much validation for your feelings, And then your community starts to implode and your safe spaces disappear because they are tainted by these two people.....yeah you cant expect yourself to be sunshine and daisies and wanna throw some ass.
I have been actually vulnerable with like 6 people in my life and to have my vulnerability absolutely trashed and betrayed quite frankly sucks ass. I am REELING over the lies they told me. they are connected to so many people i love who think they shit rainbows that i cant escape them.
So mmm I am doing not well. This is only the tip of the iceberg it runs so so deep.
I am surprised honestly how much i have been able to function but certain things like being sexy have definitely tanked.
This is all very convoluted i know, there isnt much info i am willing to share and there never will be. I dont like public callouts and am quite chicken shit when it comes to confrontation.
I am in therapy regularly and doing my best to move forward. I am deeply depressed but I have been doing my best to take time for myself to heal while staying on top of things.
My hope is that come September when i need to do a sexy shoot again i can feel more like myself again and give you all a better set and performance.
This is all I will say on the matter but i felt i owed it to you. Thank you very much for being patient with me.
Comments
Rohit Mangar
What happened was unacceptable. I’m sorry you’re going through this. While it may not feel like it now, you’ve survived everything life threw at you and you’re still faeing strong. You have built a community that supports you and only wants the best for you. You did that by your positively and resolve. When you’re ready, stand back up, we will be there for you :)
Rowan Butler
Sending all the good vibes and comfort. I'm so sorry you have been dealing with such horrific treatment.
Drakeen
I'm so sorry you have to deal with this
Dilbertgonebad
not going anywheres.
