SirTush
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Training
🕑 Added 2019-07-15 17:22:52 +0000 UTCIt's humiliating but I can't bring myself to stop. As much as I like it... as much as it turns me on I couldn't stand to see. I didn't want to see their grins, I didn't want to see their throbbing excitement so close to my face. Couldn't care to see what they looked like, appearance meant nothing to me... all I cared about was my treatment.
They always put a collar on me for their leisure, it meant little to me as well. They called me pet names, degrading names... I wanted to hear it all. I just didn't want to see them, didn't want to see my shame. Every night I pretended it was someone else who was getting humiliated.
As much as my throat hurt I tasted it.
As much as my nose burned I inhaled it.
As much as my body hurt I endured it.
It was very difficult to come to terms on what I did to myself on a daily basis. I couldn't let the others know, I was just lucky I could sneak off in the middle of the night to spend time on my own. I was never really alone, but considering I couldn't see their faces I felt alone. Even if at the end of the day I reeked of all these different aromas, when I regained my energy and slipped off the blindfolds it was only myself in the room.... and I preferred it that way.
Something in me was broken and I think this is the best way for me to fix it. It wasn't the conventional way but any other way wouldn't be as fun.
Comments
TazzieTiger
Damn, this is so good.
Injy
God I'd love to see you draw his boyfriend, Amp sometime. 😍
