~ BDC
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🕑 Added 2024-12-05 13:58:12 +0000 UTCHello everyone. I apologize for yesterday's incomplete and confusing text. Because of the great support you have given me, I feel obligated and I demand a lot from myself to give you all a reasonable explanation, even though I wasn't able to do so yesterday. I'm sorry.
Everything that happened was scary and I had never even remotely experienced anything like it in my life. I hope none of you have experienced anything like it, because I was really scared and I still am. I came very close to death and today I feel different, it seems like I'm not the same person anymore.
I was recovering from a liver attack when I got dengue fever, and to make matters worse, it was hemorrhagic dengue fever, although I didn't have any type of bleeding, just all the standard symptoms of dengue fever and some spots on my body, which would be one of the symptoms of hemorrhagic dengue fever. The fever, body aches, and headaches with dengue fever are the worst I've ever had in my life, they really drive you crazy.
I held out as long as I could, but then a friend had to take me to the doctor. As you know, I'm a bit of a hermit. I live alone and isolated on a farm in a rural area, so it's very rare for me to get sick because I have little contact with people. But unfortunately for me, I think I was infected with the Covid virus when I went to the doctor. I don't know if it was in the hospital, on the way, or some other way. During the vaccination campaign, I only got two doses of the vaccine, and I was supposed to get 4. I confess that this was a huge mistake on my part that almost cost me my life.
Things got much worse with dengue and Covid at the same time, and for the first time in my life, I had to be hospitalized.
Although I wasn't as healthy as I was before all this, the doctors praised my resilience and said that many other people wouldn't have been able to go through this. I was lucky that my lungs had some athletic background from the past and that I didn't have any pre-existing illnesses like diabetes, etc. Otherwise, they said I wouldn't have made it. Although low testosterone has really affected me in all of this.
I'm getting better little by little and I've had some symptoms since then. When I start reading something on my phone or PC, watching a video or something else, I have a lot of difficulty concentrating and I start to feel uncontrollable sleepiness. My eyes hurt from the brightness of the sun or screens. My memory seems to be slow and weak, I have a lot of lack of appetite and my sleep is completely out of control. I believe and hope that I can recover and go back to being the way I was before.
I would really like to thank all of you for your kind and supportive words, and also for continuing to support me even after all of this. You know that I would never act this way if I didn't have to. No one was more upset about this situation than I was. The page was doing well. It had been the best month so far. This was very frustrating. I had new clients and new private work that I haven't done yet.
I will respond to all emails and messages as I always do. Don't worry. I just need a few days to get myself together and get organized again.
I'll try to be objective and more organized and direct in what I want to tell you:
First, I would like to thank you all very much for your support and affection. It's really incredible to know that you like my work and that even in spite of everything, you continue to support and encourage me. I feel really lucky and blessed for that. I feel very frustrated that despite trying very hard, I can't give back with any stability on the page due to all these things that have been happening in relation to my health.
Even though it's been very, very difficult, I won't give up. I fought hard to get where I am and I really need this in every way. If I can't do it with supporters as good as you, I won't be able to do anything. I can only be very strong for everything I have and continue with hope and determination.
Thank you very much to everyone who is with me in this scary, wonderful and crazy life.
~BDC
Comments
MoonKing
I'm very glad you got care for the Dengue Fever. Please take care of yourself.
TO
We will wait. Don't force or punish yourself to get work done right now.
