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the question
🕑 Added 2024-09-12 07:56:05 +0000 UTCit's like we're caught on a carousel, spinning in the same familiar circle, always just out of reach. we keep searching for each other, but never quite meeting in the middle. and i'm done with it. the endless loop, hoping for a different outcome. it's driving me crazy, because all i want is you. i want every part of you, the pieces you show the world and the ones you guard behind those gorgeous eyes. so i have to ask you something. something real, something honest. no hiding, no deflecting.
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Rose
“The thing is, you’re not so broken that I can’t love you” 🥺 hearing that part meant everything. You have no idea. This audio spoke to me so deeply. My distrust in the world is so deeply rooted that I have trouble turning off being on guard, If that makes sense. Just constant hyper vigilance. Most of the time I prefer being by myself. I feel calmer that way and not tensed. All I’ve known growing up is distrust, emotional/ verbal abuse, neglect, yelling, Survival. So it’s no wonder I love being alone. But it’s also hard when you crave connection. Feeling what safe is supposed to feel like and Getting my needs met and especially LETTING myself get my needs met in a safe environment is still something I’m learning to be comfortable with. I’m Like a scared/ wounded dog learning to trust.
Rose
I’ve lost count on how many times I’ve listened. There are some audios that make me feel super exposed. This was one of them. You were right on the money with this one. Being seen is scary for me but rn I don’t feel so scared. To be seen by the right people is everything.
