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Unbottled (TG Story) - Chapter 3
🕑 Added 2025-07-12 19:48:23 +0000 UTCUnbottled
(TG Story)
By FemmeForge
Daniel spent most of his life thinking the worst thing about him was being a confused, horny disaster with a hopeless, slow-burning crush on his lifelong, oblivious best friend, Samuel. Years of bottled-up longing, awkward boners, and late-night identity spirals all shoved under bad jokes and fake smiles.
Turns out… he had no idea just how messy things could get.
Because one reckless night, standing in a half-lit lab with more bad decisions than common sense, Daniel took a sip from a dangerously unfinished potion…
And everything changed.
Suddenly, the body he hated twisted into the one he’d spent years secretly fantasizing about: Danielle—thick, soft, dripping with heat, and cursed with a hunger that wouldn’t stop. A ribald, filthy, insatiably horny woman… with one very specific target in mind.
Samuel.
The same best friend who’d spent years rambling about his obsession with thick thighs, wobbling asses, and girls built for sin. The same guy who could barely keep it together talking about comic book babes.
Now? Every time Daniel lifts that bottle to his lips, Danielle comes clawing back—soaked, needy, aching to get her hands on him… and under him… and around him.
What started as a humiliating gender-bending accident has turned into a full-blown, sweat-soaked, leg-shaking, brain-breaking fuckfest with Samuel caught right in the middle of it.
Poor bastard never stood a chance.
And honestly? Neither did I.
One drink at a time.
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Chapter 3
It wasn’t the first time, you know.
That night with the bra—the mirror, the moaning, the breakdown—it felt like the world cracked open, yeah. But the truth is, I’d been dancing on that edge for a long time. I just didn’t wanna admit it.
There were other nights. Way before that one.
Late at night when everyone was asleep and I thought I could get away with it. Stealing moments with clothes that weren’t mine. Picturing curves I didn’t have. Whispering dirty little things to my reflection while pretending it wasn’t weird, wasn’t wrong. Telling myself it was just a kink. Just a phase. Just me being horny and confused and... whatever.
But nah.
It was always her. That version of me I couldn’t shake. The one with hips. With tits. With need.
She never really left. She’d just… wait. For a spark. A smell. A comment Samuel would make that hit me right in the gut. One little thing and boom—she was back. In my head. In my skin. Begging to come out and be.
The bra thing just made it impossible to lie anymore. That was the night everything spilled out and refused to go back in.
But if I’m being honest?
Shit like that had been happening for years.
I just didn’t want to look at it.
Not until I had no choice.
I was 19 at the time. Almost about to start college, still pretending like I had everything figured out. Like I was just a normal guy with normal feelings and a normal best friend.
We were walking down this hallway together—me and Samuel—both of us lugging around stacks of books we’d just grabbed. Some for the entrance exams, some for fun, some just because we didn’t want to look clueless in front of the others.
He held his books in the crook of his arms like a guy would—tight against his side, one hand underneath, biceps flexing a little without even trying.
Me? I hugged mine to my chest. Arms wrapped around them like I was carrying a pillow, not textbooks. Pressed tight against me. Like they were part of me. Like they were protecting me.
I don’t think I even noticed I was doing it at first. But now? Looking back?
God, it’s so obvious.
We were chatting about nothing, the way we always did. Video games, some dumb meme he saw, whether we’d survive the first week of college without dropping out. He was laughing. I was trying not to look at his mouth too long when he smiled.
Everything felt easy. Casual. Normal.
At least on the outside.
At some point, mid-conversation—right between a dumb joke about cafeteria food and him complaining about his backpack—something shifted.
We both kind of paused, standing near the end of the hallway, like we’d just felt it: that invisible line. The quiet moment when you realize you’re not a kid anymore. That we were, somehow, already at the threshold. College was starting soon. Life was about to change. And whether we liked it or not… we had to figure out what the hell we were doing with ourselves.
I think I made some half-assed comment about time flying or whatever, trying to laugh it off, but Samuel didn’t bite. He slowed his steps, glancing over at me. There was this weird look in his eyes—not deep or emotional or anything dramatic. Just… real. Present.
Then, out of nowhere, he hit me with it.
“So… what do you actually have in your head for the future?”
I blinked.
“What?” I laughed awkwardly, shifting the books against my chest.
He shrugged like it was no big deal, but he kept looking straight at me.
“Like, seriously. You got a plan or are you just gonna keep winging it until you trip into something that sticks?”
It caught me totally off guard. I wasn’t expecting him to ask something like that. Not here. Not now. Not when I was still buzzing from how good his laugh had just sounded.
But there it was.
And suddenly the hallway felt too quiet.
And the books in my arms felt too heavy.
And I didn’t know what the hell to say.
I didn’t answer right away.
I just stood there, staring past him like I was mulling it over—pretending to be deep in thought, like I was trying to piece together a plan for my future from thin air.
But I wasn’t thinking about majors or internships or what dorm I’d get assigned to.
I was thinking about him.
Samuel.
He’d always been there. Not just like a friend, but like a constant. A part of the scenery in my life that never changed, no matter how much everything else did. The one who stayed when others drifted. The one who laughed at my dumb jokes. Who showed up even when I didn’t ask. Who never judged me, even when I felt like a stranger to myself.
And now—now we were standing at the edge of everything. College. Adulthood. Change. The future.
And what I didn’t want to say—what I couldn’t even let myself think too loudly—was that I didn’t want to leave.
Not yet.
Not while we still had late-night walks and half-finished thoughts. Not while I still had him all to myself in the safe little bubble we’d built over the years. A bubble where I didn’t have to think too hard about what I was feeling, or who I was, or how badly I sometimes caught myself staring at him and thinking things I wasn’t ready to admit.
It wasn’t that I was scared of college.
I was scared of losing us.
Scared that once we stepped into the world and started living separate lives, we’d never find our way back to the easy, stupid, beautiful closeness we had now. That he’d meet new people. Fall for some girl. Move on. Change.
And I wouldn’t be part of the picture anymore.
So I hesitated. Just for a second too long.
Then I forced a shrug. Pulled a too-quick smile that didn’t quite reach my eyes.
“I dunno,” I said, lightly. “Still figuring it out, I guess.”
My voice sounded casual. Normal. Like nothing was boiling beneath the surface.
But I didn’t meet his eyes.
Because if I did—if I let myself look too long—I was scared he might see through me. That he’d see the real reason I didn’t want to talk about the future.
Because the truth was, I didn’t want a future that didn’t have him in it.
And I didn’t know what the hell that meant.
As I kept walking beside him, his question still echoing in the back of my mind, I felt myself spiraling inward—quietly, invisibly—into that familiar place I always went when things got too real. The place where I could admit the truth to myself in fragments, but never say it out loud.
And the truth was, I hated myself.
Not for being confused. Not even for being scared. I hated myself for never saying anything. For never telling him. For all the time we’d known each other—years of friendship, of sleepovers and secrets and shared jokes and stupid memories—I never once told him the one thing that mattered the most.
That I had feelings for him. Real ones. Messy, complicated, impossible ones.
Not just the kind you tell yourself will fade with time. Not just a schoolyard crush. I felt something for him, something so deep and tangled in my bones that I didn’t even know where I ended and where that ache for him began.
And it wasn’t just emotional.
It was dirty. Physical. Shameful.
For god’s sake—I used to goon over him. I’d lay awake at night with my cock in my hand, jerking off to this twisted fantasy where I was turning into a woman right there in front of him. I’d imagine my hips widening, my ass swelling round and heavy, my chest puffing up into soft, full tits—moaning as my voice pitched higher and my body got slick and needy, begging for him to take me. To fuck me. To make me his.
Sometimes I imagined him behind me, hands gripping my hips, his voice rough and low in my ear. Sometimes I imagined him being gentle—kissing me, calling me pretty, looking at me like I was something precious. But always, always, I imagined being her. The girl version of me I didn’t dare let exist in daylight. The one I only let breathe in the dark, in secret, in sweat and shame.
And then afterward, when it was over—when I’d finished and wiped the mess off my stomach—I’d just sit there in the quiet, feeling disgusting. Guilty. Weak. Like I’d just committed some crime against myself. Like there was something fundamentally wrong with me for wanting what I wanted.
So I never told him.
I couldn’t. Not with everything wrapped up in that kind of filthy, perverted context. Because how do you even start that conversation? “Hey, I think I’m into you. Also, I fantasize about you railing me while I grow a pussy and moan like a porn star.” Like, how the fuck does anyone survive saying something like that out loud?
Even now, walking beside him, standing on the edge of adulthood, I still couldn’t bring myself to say anything real. Not about who I was. Not about what I felt. Not even about how scared I was to leave all this behind. Because we were leaving. We were going to split. New schools, new people, new paths. And whatever this weird, beautiful closeness we had was—it wasn’t going to survive that.
Not if I stayed silent.
But silence was the only thing I knew how to give him. Because if I ever actually opened my mouth and let it spill out, it wouldn’t come out clean. It wouldn’t sound romantic. It wouldn’t sound sane.
It would sound like obsession. Like fetish. Like something broken inside me finally snapping in half.
So I kept walking. Holding my books tight against my chest like armor, like they could protect me from the ache in my throat. I nodded, shrugged, smiled a little too fast. Played the part I always played—loyal friend, good listener, harmless shadow.
And all the while, I hated myself more with every step.
Because I knew this wouldn’t last. I knew this time, this version of us, was running out.
And I still couldn’t say a goddamn thing.
The truth was, I didn’t want Samuel to leave me.
I didn’t care if that sounded clingy or pathetic or too much. It was too much. But it was real. I didn’t want him to move on, to drift away into his new life and new friends and forget the space we used to share. I didn’t want to be left behind in the dust of his future like I was just some fond memory from high school.
Even with all the shame I carried—the filthy thoughts, the late-night fantasies, the way I moaned his name under my breath when I was alone and desperate—I still had something deeper underneath all that. Something that didn’t feel like lust. Something that scared me even more.
Because I kind of... had something real for him. Something that had been there longer than the fantasies. Longer than the confusion. Something I’d buried so deep I couldn’t even say the word to myself most days.
I was afraid to say I loved him.
Even just thinking it made my stomach twist. Because love was supposed to be pure, right? Sweet and clean and honest. And what I felt was so tangled up in shame and need and things I didn’t understand about myself that it felt wrong to call it love.
But maybe it was. Maybe it was love, just dressed in something messier. Something more painful.
And maybe that’s why it hurt so much to stay silent.
Because I wanted to tell him.
But I didn’t know how to love him out loud without ruining everything.
I was also a man.
That was the part I couldn’t escape, no matter how I twisted the fantasy, no matter how soft my voice got when I was alone or how feminine I tried to imagine myself in the dark. My body was still what it was. Flat chest. Narrow hips. A dick between my legs. No matter how much I longed to be different, no matter how many times I closed my eyes and pictured softness and curves and wet heat—when I opened them, I was still me. Still Daniel.
And Samuel wouldn’t love a man. Not like that.
He just wouldn’t. He wasn’t wired that way. He liked girls—real girls. He talked about tits and thighs and the kind of moaning pornstars did when they bounced on a dick, and I’d laugh with him like I wasn’t secretly picturing myself in their place. Like I wasn’t aching to be seen that way. Touched that way. By him.
Maybe that’s part of why I kept going back to that same fantasy. The one where my body changed. Where I slowly turned into someone he could want. Where my hips widened, my ass got heavy and soft, my voice slipped into something high and breathy and slutty. Where my cock melted away and left something warm and wet behind—something he’d want to thrust into and use. Where I’d beg for it, drunk on the way he filled me, because finally, I was what he wanted.
Maybe that’s why I kept making it about turning into a woman.
Because it was easier to believe he could love her.
And not me.
Before I could even try to recover what I was about to say—before I could even think of trying again—he launched right into one of his classic tangents. Like I hadn’t been hanging on the edge of something fragile. Like I hadn’t just nearly bared the ugliest, deepest part of myself.
“I’ve been thinking mechanical engineering,” he said, casually tossing the conversation forward like we’d been heading there the whole time. “Like, seriously. I think I’d love to work with cars, you know? Tuning engines, messing with parts, building something with my hands.”
He gestured as he talked, mimicking how he’d hold tools, describing some turbocharged engine with his usual goofy passion, like it was the coolest shit in the world.
“It’s like… I dunno,” he went on, “there’s something sick about knowing exactly how everything fits together—like this puzzle that roars when you get it right. Plus, I wouldn’t mind restoring some old junker and turning it into a beast. That’d be so badass.”
I nodded along, smiling just enough to keep him going. He was glowing—so alive talking about it. Animated in that way that made everyone love him, made it impossible not to get caught up in his energy. And I was caught up in it. I always was.
But part of me just kept sinking.
Because while he was talking about engines and pistons and building the future with his bare hands, I was still back in the moment I lost—still echoing with that aborted “I…” I’d tried to give him.
He didn’t know. Of course he didn’t. How could he?
So I just kept walking beside him, nodding and pretending I hadn’t almost poured my heart out in the middle of a hallway.
Over the years, Samuel had changed.
He wasn’t the lanky, awkward, noodle-armed kid I used to walk home from school with. He was still a geek, still had that boyish charm and the way he got way too excited talking about sci-fi or horsepower, but somewhere along the way he’d decided he didn’t want to be skin and bones anymore. He said it once, kind of offhand, like it wasn’t a big deal—"I wanna put some flesh on these bones. Get strong for real." I didn’t think he’d actually stick with it.
But he did.
Two years of gym time, protein shakes, soreness, and consistency… and the results were impossible to ignore. His t-shirts clung tighter across the chest now, stretched just slightly around the arms. His pecs had grown defined—broad, full, and heavy-looking. His biceps bulged when he bent his elbows to gesture, and the thick veins running down his forearms popped like cords whenever he moved his hands with purpose. Even beneath his shirt, you could make out the slope of his torso narrowing down to abs—four hard little ridges, tight and clean.
He kept talking, completely unaware of how hard I was zoning out. Rambling about oil filters and torque wrenches and some dream he had about building his own muscle car from scratch.
But in my mind?
He was shirtless. Greased up and golden in the sun, sweat clinging to the edges of his neck. His pecs glistening under a smear of motor oil, rising and falling with each breath. His abs flexing tight as he leaned over the hood, muscles shifting under his skin like machinery of their own. His hands—God, his hands—gripping engine parts, fingers coated in slick, black oil, the veins in his forearms pulsing as he worked.
It was smut, plain and simple. A walking, breathing porno reel that unspooled behind my eyes while he kept going, completely oblivious.
My gaze locked blankly ahead, eyes fixed on the hallway in front of me, but I wasn’t seeing it anymore. I was gone. His voice became background noise—like a TV on in another room—while those scenes took over everything. Every slow-motion wipe of his hand, every grunt as he adjusted some greasy component, every flex of his arms as he pulled something heavy.
I tried to blink it away.
I couldn’t.
He was shirtless. Greased up and golden in the sun, like some obscene statue come to life. Sweat clung to the edges of his neck in lazy rivulets, dripping down the dip of his collarbone and tracing slow, glistening paths over his chest. His pecs were thick—heavy and perfect—glistening under a smear of motor oil like someone had painted sin right onto his skin. They rose and fell with every breath, tight and powerful, the kind of chest you could feel the weight of just by looking at it.
His abs were tight, lined like stone beneath his stomach, flexing with every shift of his hips. Four visible ridges, shallow but sculpted, leading down in that perfect V that disappeared into his jeans like a secret you weren’t supposed to see. He leaned over the hood of the car with casual confidence, muscles moving beneath his skin like they had their own rhythm—biceps thick and smooth, shoulders rolling as he braced himself. Every inch of him looked built for work and sin at the same time.
But it was his hands that ruined me.
God, his hands.
Gripping greasy engine parts like they were made to be bent to his will. Thick fingers stained with black oil, glinting slick in the light. Veins bulging and twitching along his forearms as he twisted bolts and pried things loose, every movement full of raw, unconscious strength. The cords of muscle stood out like ropes, pulsing just beneath his skin, like his body knew how much I watched it—how much I ached for it.
And the sounds—oh God, the sounds. That low grunt he made as he pushed something into place. The way he wiped his forehead with the back of his wrist, leaving a smudge across his temple like a mark of ownership. The wet squelch of oil-slicked metal, the rhythmic clink of tools, the occasional hiss of breath between his teeth as he adjusted something tight. I imagined those hands on me—pressing, pinning, gripping—and everything inside me went hot and tight and wrong.
He had no idea.
None.
He just kept working, kept talking, kept being, while I stood there next to him pretending to be normal, pretending my legs weren’t weak, pretending I wasn’t picturing myself bent over that car hood, sweat dripping from my spine while he stood behind me, grease still on his fingers as he gripped my hips and—
I snapped out of my daze when he snapped me out of it, his voice cutting through the heat in my head with a casual, “Dude, what are you thinking about?”
I blinked, heart still racing, my cheeks burning hotter than they had any right to. I just kept staring awkwardly for a second too long, mouth opening like I might actually say something real—then closing again when my brain short-circuited.
He quirked a brow, smirking a little, probably thinking I’d zoned out over something stupid.
I gave a lame shrug, trying to play it off.
“Nothing,” I mumbled, voice too light, too fast. “Just spaced out.”
He kept going—pressing, nudging, trying to get more out of me. “C’mon, man,” he said with that casual grin of his. “You’ve gotta have something in mind. What kind of job would you actually want to wake up for?”
I forced another smile, tried to shrug him off like I didn’t care, but something in the way he asked stuck with me. Maybe because this time, he sounded like he actually wanted to know. Like it wasn’t just filler conversation, but something deeper.
So I let myself drift a little. Thought about it, really thought about it.
The truth?
I always wanted to be a geneticist. A real one. Not just the kind that memorizes diagrams for a biology test, but someone who dives into the deep end of DNA—who deciphers the language of life like it’s some sacred code. I wanted to sit under a microscope and watch cells divide like tiny universes, to hold strands of what makes us us in my gloved hands and tinker with it. I used to fantasize—not in the same way I fantasized about Samuel, but still—with this feverish obsession about gene splicing, chromosomal structures, mutations. I’d lie awake imagining myself editing the very essence of being. It wasn’t just science. It was intimacy. With nature. With identity. With truth.
And maybe, deep down, that obsession had always been tied to something more personal. Something I didn’t have the courage to say out loud.
Because, if I was being honest with myself—and I rarely was—maybe I wasn’t drawn to genetics just because it was “cool” or cutting-edge or full of promise. Maybe I was drawn to it because I was trying to decode myself. Trying to understand why I felt the way I did. Why I couldn’t look in the mirror without wishing it would morph into something softer, curvier, stranger. Why the body I was born with always felt like a half-finished blueprint. Like someone had started building me, then stopped halfway through the design.
Studying genetics felt like a way to get answers.
Like maybe, if I just understood enough, I could trace these feelings back to a sequence. To a glitch. To a missing chromosome, or a gene that never expressed. And if I could find it—if I could see it, name it, isolate it—then maybe I could fix it. Or… not fix. That wasn’t the right word.
Maybe I could rewrite it.
It sounds insane, I know. Like something out of sci-fi. But to me, it wasn’t just about science. It was hope. Control. A quiet rebellion against the cage of biology. A way to take my shame, my confusion, my not-quite-right-ness and put it under a lens and do something with it. Something real. Something powerful.
So yeah.
When Samuel asked what I wanted to do with my life, what I saw myself becoming—
I almost told him the truth.
That I wanted to be the kind of scientist who cracked the code of gender itself.
Because maybe then I’d finally stop feeling like some anomaly trapped between what I was and what I could’ve been.
Maybe then I could become someone I actually wanted to be.
he study of what made someone a man or a woman—what determined sex, gender, and even sexuality on a genetic and molecular level—was so captivating to me that it felt less like a passing interest and more like a calling. The intricacies of it all, the way a simple pair of chromosomes could ripple outward into a lifetime of identity, experience, and even desire—it fascinated me in a way I couldn’t explain to anyone without revealing too much.
It wasn’t just about science. It was about meaning. About understanding the very foundations of what made people who they were… and what made me feel so different.
Biology and biochemistry had always been my strongest subjects anyway—the only ones where I didn’t have to fake interest or grind just to keep up. They came naturally. I devoured textbooks, took extra credit assignments I didn’t need, watched lectures online for fun. I could lose myself in cellular pathways, in hormone cascades, in the language of DNA like it was poetry.
So when I started thinking about the future—about what I could do with all this—it didn’t feel like some wild leap. It felt logical. Natural. Like the most obvious choice in the world.
If I was going to spend my life doing anything…
Why not dedicate it to understanding the systems that made people the way they were?
Maybe, in doing so, I could finally start to understand myself.
The idea of studying what made someone a man or a woman—really made them, down to the chromosomes, the hormones, the silent instructions in their DNA that told a body to grow tits or balls, to drip slick or throb hard—it always did something to me. It wasn’t just fascinating. It was hot. Intimate in a way no other science could be. Like peeling back the skin of identity and seeing the raw, biological truth underneath.
I used to get lost thinking about it: how a single gene could spark breasts into growing, or flood a body with testosterone until it hardened into something blunt and aggressive. How sex wasn’t just about parts, but chemicals and code. The more I learned, the more I wanted to drown in it—map every inch of what made a body fuckable, soft, desirable. And maybe, quietly, figure out why my own body never felt quite right… and what it would take to change it.
Biology and biochemistry were the only subjects where I didn’t just thrive—I hungered. Diagrams of endocrine systems, hormone pathways, sexual differentiation—they lit something up in me that I never dared admit out loud. I’d sit there in class, cock half-hard under the desk, thinking about how estrogen carved curves out of flatness, how testosterone deepened voices and hardened jaws, how with the right mix of molecules, a body could betray its birth and become something else entirely.
So when I thought about the future—when Samuel asked that question and I actually let myself imagine what I wanted to be—the answer was obvious. Of course I wanted to be a geneticist. Of course I wanted to spend my life elbows-deep in the wet, messy truth of what makes someone a man or a woman.
But the idea of actually becoming a woman? That always felt more like some horny science fiction fantasy than anything grounded in reality. Like the kind of wild, late-night thought you jerk off to and then immediately feel stupid for even entertaining. A sexy little daydream where science crossed wires with desire, where a pill or injection or strand of edited DNA could magically soften my body, widen my hips, puff up my chest, and melt away everything that didn’t belong.
Yeah—it was hot. Shamefully hot. But not real. Not something I could ever actually have.
Still, even if I couldn’t live it, I could study it.
The science itself was more than enough to keep me hooked.
Chromosomes. Genes. The quiet machinery inside every cell that decided whether someone would sprout a clit or a cock, grow a beard or a pair of tits—it was all endlessly fascinating to me. Even without the fantasy, the raw biology of sex and gender was like this beautiful, tangled puzzle. And the deeper I dove into it, the more it felt like I was getting closer to some secret truth—about humans, about desire, and maybe, just maybe… about myself.
So I decided to tell Samuel about the genetic scientist stuff.
Not the whole truth, obviously. Not the part where I lay awake at night imagining hormone levels surging through my bloodstream, reshaping my body into something soft and fuckable. Not the part where I obsessed over the idea of rewriting my chromosomes like a cheat code—flipping XY to XX just to feel what it was like to exist as something wanted.
No.
That stayed locked away, as always.
What I gave him was the filtered version. Polished. Harmless.
We were still walking down the hallway, and he was mid-ramble about engine torque or pistons or whatever the hell had him excited that minute, when I finally cut in.
“I’ve actually been thinking about doing something in genetics,” I said, trying to sound casual. “Like biology, biochem… gene stuff.”
I didn’t look at him when I said it. Just stared ahead, watching the floor pass beneath our shoes, like the pattern of the tiles might help me keep my voice steady.
He slowed down a little, the weight of his backpack shifting with his steps.
“For real?” he said after a beat, glancing sideways at me. “Like... DNA and Petri dish stuff?”
I let out a soft laugh. “Yeah. Kind of. Like the whole cellular-level breakdown of how we work. How bodies develop. Why people turn out the way they do. That kind of thing’s always been fascinating to me.”
He smirked. “Okay, science guy. Didn’t know you were a gene nerd.”
I shrugged, trying to play it off with a grin. “Guess I kept it quiet. But yeah. I’ve always liked the idea of understanding that stuff. Like… going deep. Studying the basics of life, you know?”
What I didn’t say—what I couldn’t say—was that I’d fantasized about splicing my own genes since I was fifteen. That every lecture on sexual dimorphism or endocrine pathways made me ache in places I didn’t know how to talk about. That I didn’t just want to understand the science. I wanted to feel it. Live it. Change myself with it.
Samuel nodded, his brow furrowed like he was actually thinking it over. “That’s actually badass,” he said. “I mean, you always crushed science class anyway. Makes sense. You were the only one who didn’t look dead inside during lectures.”
I laughed, genuinely this time, even though my stomach was still tight. “Yeah, well… it just made sense to me. Like, I don’t know. Everything else always felt kind of abstract. But genes? Biology? That’s real. That’s… us. It’s what we’re made of.”
He smiled at that. “Kinda deep.”
I smirked, feeling a little more at ease. “Don’t get used to it.”
But even as I joked, I felt that old tension buzzing under my skin. Because no matter how cool he played it, I still wasn’t telling him everything. I’d dropped the name of the thing I wanted, but not the why. Not the nights alone in my room, whispering my own name like it didn’t belong to me. Not the way I used to stare in the mirror and imagine my body shifting, reshaping, becoming something closer to who I really was—someone he might look at differently.
And still, even that half-truth—just saying “genetics” out loud, giving it air—felt risky.
Like if I said too much, he might start asking questions I wasn’t ready to answer.
I decided—after so many swallowed words and aborted moments—that maybe I needed to talk to him about us. About our relationship. About what would happen when college started and everything changed.
It felt stupid, honestly. Dramatic. But the idea of just… parting ways, drifting into separate lives without ever saying anything, made my chest tighten in a way I couldn’t ignore anymore. I couldn’t live with the silence—not again. Not forever.
So I started slow. Tentative. Almost hesitant enough to back out.
We were still walking, the hallway nearly empty now, and the late afternoon light spilled in through the windows, casting long shadows. I waited for a lull in his latest tangent—something about superchargers or fuel injection or whatever—and slipped in a quiet, shaky question.
“Do you ever think about what’s gonna happen to us?”
He glanced over at me, puzzled. “What do you mean?”
I pretended to focus on the floor tiles again. It was easier than looking at him.
“Like… when college starts. When we’re not seeing each other every day. When we have different schedules, different campuses, different… lives.”
My voice was soft, nearly lost in the echo of our footsteps.
There was a pause. He didn’t say anything right away, which made me want to swallow the whole thing back down, pretend I hadn’t said a word. But I kept going, pushing forward, each word like stepping out onto thin ice.
“I mean, it’s always just been… you and me, y’know?” I forced a weak smile. “Since forever. And I guess I’m just wondering if that’s gonna… change.”
Still no answer. Just the sound of him shifting the weight of his books in his arms.
So I tried again.
“Like, are we gonna drift apart? Do you think we’ll still talk as much? Hang out?”
I knew how desperate I sounded, but I couldn’t help it.
“Or are we just gonna fade into old memories, like those people you look back on and think, ‘Man, remember them?’”
I hated how my voice cracked near the end. Hated that I was even asking.
But I had to.
Because losing him—without even knowing how he felt about it—was starting to feel like some slow, quiet death I couldn’t explain.
Samuel didn’t answer right away.
In fact, the moment the words left my mouth, he kind of… shut down.
He stopped looking at me. Eyes forward, jaw tight. Like suddenly the floor tiles were more interesting than anything I had to say. Like he was trying to pretend I hadn’t just asked him if he was going to forget about me.
That shift—so small, but so sharp—made something cold curl in my chest.
“…Is there something wrong with what I said?” I asked, trying to keep my voice light, but I could already feel it cracking. “You got weird all of a sudden.”
He let out a breath. Not a sigh, not quite—just a slow exhale, like he was bracing for something.
Then, after a long pause, he finally said it.
“I wasn’t gonna bring it up yet but… I think I’m gonna live on campus.”
His voice was low. Careful. Like he knew it would land wrong.
Like he knew it would hurt.
And it did.
I stopped walking. Just—froze. Right there in the middle of the hallway, books still clutched to my chest like a fucking shield, heart thudding in my ears.
“Oh,” I said, barely louder than a whisper.
My heart started to thunder in my chest—so loud, so sudden, it felt like it might shake the books right out of my arms.
The words live on campus echoed in my skull like a warning bell, each repetition sharper than the last.
And just like that, my thoughts spiraled—drifting to that quiet, contained despair I’d tried so hard to keep buried.
The fear of losing him.
Of waking up one day and realizing he wasn’t there anymore.
That all the late-night walks, the stupid inside jokes, the easy silences, the way his presence made the world make sense… would be over.
I swallowed hard, tried not to let him see the cracks spidering through my expression.
Tried to keep it together, even if my voice shook. Even if the smile I forced felt brittle and wrong.
It didn’t have to be perfect. It just had to be enough.
“Oh,” I said again, then managed something close to a breath.
“So… what’s that gonna be like?” I asked, keeping my tone light, almost curious. “I mean, living on campus. How’s that gonna work?”
I didn’t add for us.
But it hung there in the air between us anyway.
Heavy. Inevitable.
Samuel must’ve seen something in my face—maybe the way my eyes had gone a little too wide, or how my fingers clenched tighter around the books against my chest. Whatever it was, his tone softened immediately, that instinctive gentleness he always slipped into when he thought I was upset.
“Hey, hey—it’s not like I’m moving across the country or anything,” he said, voice low, trying to sound reassuring. “The campus isn’t even that far. Like, what? Thirty minutes, tops? We’ll still hang out. Text. Call. Whatever. It’s not the end of the world, man.”
He gave a crooked little smile, like he really believed that. Like distance was just a number and nothing would change.
But for me, it didn’t help.
Not even a little.
Because the distance wasn’t what scared me.
It was the shift.
The change in rhythm. The quiet unraveling of a bond that had been so steady, so constant, I didn’t know how to imagine my life without it. Without him.
I opened my mouth, trying to force something out—anything—but my throat felt tight, like it had been stuffed with cotton and heat and shame. My lips parted, and the words just… didn’t come.
All I could manage was a stutter. A broken sound. A pathetic little breath that wasn’t even a full syllable.
I hated how obvious it felt.
How helpless I suddenly seemed.
And I hated even more that I couldn’t hide it from him.
Then—like the universe had been waiting for the worst possible moment—a group of students suddenly turned the corner at the far end of the hallway.
Voices echoing, sneakers squeaking against the tile, laughter bouncing off the walls like sharp little intrusions.
And just like that, we weren’t alone anymore.
I was still halfway through trying to stutter something—anything—and now I had a small audience. A dozen unfamiliar eyes drifting toward us, curious, half-focused, probably just wondering why two guys were standing frozen in the middle of the corridor like statues in a bad breakup scene.
As the hallway started to fill, the air shifted—louder, heavier, more chaotic. I was still half-frozen in place, cheeks burning, chest tight, when a pack of girls rounded the corner like they owned the place. Their laughter was sharp, bright, and practiced—the kind of sound that wasn’t just noise, but a weapon.
It didn’t take long.
One glance. One double-take. That was all they needed.
The one at the front—tall, smug, her hair in a perfect high ponytail and her walk all hips and command—spotted me first. She slowed, eyes narrowing with theatrical delight, and nudged the girl next to her with her elbow like she’d just found something hilarious.
“Oh my God,” she said, voice rising above the crowd. “Would you look at how he’s holding those books?”
I didn’t even have time to flinch before the others were zeroing in.
“He’s hugging them like a damn purse,” the second one snorted. “What’s the matter, you afraid someone’s gonna snatch your makeup bag?”
“I’ve never seen a guy hold books like that,” another one added, loud and lazy. “That’s, like, peak girly energy. You trying to start your transition, sweetheart?”
The ponytail girl gasped, hand to her chest in fake shock.
“Ohhh, wait! Is that what this is? Are you a she now? Should we start calling you, what, Daniella? Aw, don’t be shy, girl.”
Their voices hit me one after the other—laughing, taunting, overlapping until it was hard to tell who said what.
“You walk like one too, by the way.”
“He’s totally got that little sway. Like he practices in front of the mirror.”
“I bet he tucks. You tuck, baby girl?”
“Aww, look at that blush. Someone’s getting shy. Don’t worry, we’re just playing with you, princess.”
“She’s holding those books like they’re covering her itty-bitty titties!”
“I bet you cry when you break a nail, huh? Or when you can’t find the right shade of lip gloss?”
“I swear, if you’d just put on a wig and some lashes, nobody would even question it.”
“She’s halfway there already. We just caught her mid-glow-up.”
Their laughter was deafening. Not because it was loud—though it was—but because it kept going. They didn’t stop after one jab. They piled it on, built it up, passed it back and forth like a game.
And all of it—every single word—landed in the exact places I didn’t want anyone to look.
Like they’d peeled back the skin and found what I was hiding underneath.
I stood there gripping the books like they were the only thing keeping me from falling apart, too stunned to speak, too humiliated to move. My throat had closed up completely, and my mouth was just… open. Helpless.
Some part of me wanted to run. Another part wanted to scream.
But most of me just stood there—frozen, exposed, seen.
And still they kept going.
“She’s gonna cry, look at her face.”
“Aw, don’t cry, baby girl, you’ll ruin your mascara.”
“She probably gets off on this. Bet she loves being called a girl.”
“Seriously, why even fight it? You’re already halfway there.”
Their heels clacked as they finally moved past, still laughing, still looking back over their shoulders like they couldn’t get enough.
And I was left behind, standing in the same spot, skin prickling, ears roaring, heart thudding like a war drum in my chest.
And the worst part—the part that made me feel like something inside me was rotting—was that not all of it hurt.
Some of it fit.
Some of it slipped right into that aching, secret part of me that wanted it. That wanted them to be right. That wanted to be called “her,” even if it was through mockery. Even if it was cruel.
And that part?
That part scared me the most.
Samuel must've heard enough. He stepped forward, voice tense and low, trying to cut through the noise.
“Hey. Knock it off,” he said, his tone way firmer than usual. “Seriously, just leave him alone.”
That should’ve been the end of it. Should’ve made them back off. But instead, it only poured fuel on the fire.
The lead girl turned on her heel, all smug confidence, lips curling into a grin like she’d just been handed a new toy.
“Ohhh, look at that,” she purred, eyes darting between us. “Is the boyfriend stepping in to protect his little lady?”
The others burst out laughing.
“I knew it,” one of them said. “She’s already got a man. You two roleplay at night or what? I bet he calls you baby girl and makes you wear his shirts.”
“I mean,” another chimed in, “you’d be so hot as a chick. Like, imagine him in a little skirt and thigh-highs, all soft and needy, begging for attention.”
The smirking ringleader leaned closer like she was picturing it, her eyes glittering with cruelty.
“Bet he’d have the cutest moans. All breathy and sweet. I’d tap that, not even kidding.”
“Same,” her friend laughed. “Put a wig and some tits on him, and I’d ruin her.”
Samuel looked like he’d been hit with a brick.
His mouth parted, but nothing came out—just a blink, a flush so red it climbed up his neck like wildfire.
His face was glowing with embarrassment, completely stunned.
He looked away, lips twitching like he was trying to find the right comeback, the right line, but it never came.
And me?
I was stuck in this surreal, slow-motion collapse.
My skin burned, my chest squeezed tight, but my mind was spinning somewhere else entirely—dizzy and horrified and… turned on? Humiliated? Both? I couldn’t even tell anymore.
Because they weren’t laughing at me like I was some joke anymore.
They were teasing like they wanted me.
Like the idea of me as a girl wasn’t just funny. It was hot.
And that messed me up even worse.
The teasing didn’t stop. If anything, it only got worse. Raunchier. Crueler. More specific.
One of the girls tilted her head, giving me a slow, dramatic once-over like she was trying to picture it.
“God, can you imagine him with hips?” she laughed, her voice laced with mock-lust. “Like big, wide, grab-me hips—mmmph. I’d smack that ass every time he walked by.”
“And tits,” another chimed in, licking her lips in this exaggerated porno-actress way. “Big ol’ tits bouncing under a tight little top, nipples poking through. He’d be irresistible.”
“I bet she’d have a juicy ass, too,” the first one said, eyes lighting up like she was painting it in her mind. “Like, soft and round, just begging to be bent over a desk. You’d be the school slut in a week, babe.”
I wanted to disappear. My skin felt raw, my ears were ringing, and my legs were shaky.
Every word hit like a slap, but worse than that—worse than that—was the way it sent electricity down my spine. This sickening mix of shame and arousal and pure emotional overload that made it impossible to breathe right.
I finally snapped, or tried to.
“I—shut the fuck up, I’m not—”
But the words barely made it out before one of them cut me off, grinning wide.
“Aww, naughty girl talks back now?” she said, practically purring. “Look at her getting all flustered. Must be that inner slut fighting to come out.”
Laughter exploded around me again, bouncing off the lockers, off the walls, loud and hot and choking.
The more they teased, the more unbearable it got. Their voices were like knives—each one cutting deeper, sharper, more shameless than the last. Every new comment about how I’d look with tits, or how I'd walk with swaying hips, or how my moans would sound while getting railed, made the air feel heavier, hotter, like it was pressing in on my skin.
And the "naughty girl" bit… they wouldn’t let it go.
Every time I flinched, every time I clenched my jaw or looked away or tried to shrink out of their view, one of them would croon it again like a hook in a nasty little song.
"Aww, naughty girl’s getting shy now."
“She's thinking about it. Look at that face. Someone's getting wet.”
"Bet she's dreaming about getting manhandled. Probably wants her hair pulled."
My insides twisted. My thoughts were a loud, unbearable hum. I couldn’t even tell anymore where the humiliation ended and the arousal began. It was like they had pulled out something private and raw and were parading it around for fun.
Maybe they did know.
Maybe they’d seen too much.
Maybe someone overheard me talking to Samuel over the years—one of those late nights when the hallway lights were off and my voice got soft in ways it shouldn’t have. Maybe they noticed how close we were. How we always drifted toward each other in rooms, how our friendship had this invisible line humming underneath it.
Or maybe it was just rumor. High school was like that. Whispered guesses turned into certainties fast.
But I didn’t care anymore. I didn’t care why they were doing it, or what they knew, or how they could laugh like it was just another moment to fill the day with.
I just wanted to be gone.
I turned—books still clutched tight to my chest, throat tight, legs buzzing—and stepped to leave. I didn’t even know where I was going. I just knew I had to get out of there before I cracked. Before something inside me spilled out where everyone could see.
But just as I took that first, desperate step away, I heard his voice behind me.
“Wait.”
It was quiet but firm.
Samuel.
And I froze.
Like the hallway had locked around me.
“Wait,” he said again, softer this time, stepping after me. His hand almost reached out, like he wasn’t sure if he should touch me, like even he didn’t know what to do with the moment unraveling between us.
“Don’t let them get to you,” he said, his voice gentler now. “They don’t know anything. They’re just being bitches.”
I didn’t answer. Couldn’t.
He shifted awkwardly beside me, eyes flicking to the floor, then back up. “Is this about… us?” he asked, and the way he said it—like he wasn’t even sure what “us” meant—made something twist hard in my gut.
“Because if it is,” he continued, “we’re good. Okay? I mean—whatever’s happening, whatever those girls think they know, it doesn’t change anything between us.”
But it did.
The damage was already done.
It didn’t matter what he said now.
The humiliation had already burrowed into me, sunk its claws in deep. Those words, those images—me with tits, me as “naughty girl,” me begging, soft, transformed, exposed—they were still echoing like some nightmare I couldn’t shake.
And the worst part was how some awful part of me didn’t hate it.
I wanted to believe him. I wanted to feel safe in his voice, in his words, like I always used to.
But I couldn’t.
Not now.
Not with my hands shaking and my thoughts all fucked and my face still flushed from being picked apart like some perverted doll in front of everyone.
I didn’t look at him. I just nodded stiffly, trying to pull my mask back on.
But it didn’t quite fit anymore.
"You’ve been weird all day, man. Like… different. I mean, I get it, those girls were brutal, but this isn’t just about them, is it?"
DANIEL:
"I don’t know… Maybe. Maybe it is. Maybe it isn’t. I just—" (his voice cracks slightly) "I feel like everything’s about to change, and I don’t know how to deal with it."
SAMUEL:
"Change is part of it, right? College, new people, new places… But we’re still us. You and me. That doesn’t have to change."
DANIEL: (laughs bitterly)
"You really believe that? That we’ll just… stay the same? After everything?"
SAMUEL:
"Why not? I mean, I’ll still text you. I’ll call. I’ll visit. You’ll do the same. Right?"
DANIEL: (softly)
"You’ll forget."
SAMUEL: (taken aback)
"What? No, I—"
DANIEL:
"You’ll meet new people. Smarter people. Cooler people. Girls who actually make sense. And I’ll just… fade. I’ll become some high school friend you used to know who got weird near the end."
SAMUEL: (steps closer)
"That’s not fair. You think I’m just gonna drop you the second something new shows up? You’re more than that to me, Dan."
DANIEL: (looks up, eyes wet)
"Then say it."
SAMUEL:
"What?"
DANIEL:
"Say what I am to you. Say what you actually feel. Because I’m tired of pretending like this isn’t killing me."
SAMUEL: (quiet for a beat)
"I… I care about you. A lot. You’re important to me. I just… I don’t know what you want me to say."
DANIEL: (voice breaking)
"I don’t either. That’s the problem."
(pause)
"Because I don’t even know what I want. I just know I can’t keep walking next to you pretending I’m fine when everything inside me is screaming."
SAMUEL: (reaching out)
"Daniel, come on—don’t do this. Just talk to me."
DANIEL: (pulling back, tears threatening)
"I am talking to you. And you still don’t see it."
(a beat, trembling breath)
"This… this was the only thing in my life that felt safe. You were the only thing. And now even that feels like it’s slipping away."
SAMUEL:
"It’s not. I swear, it’s not. You just have to—"
DANIEL:
"I can’t!" (he yells suddenly, startling both of them)
"I can’t do this right now. I can’t stand here and pretend it’s all okay just because you say it will be."
(He backs away, fast. Turns. The hallway’s still echoing, still charged with everything unsaid. Samuel takes a step after him—hesitates.)
"Daniel, wait!"
But I don’t stop. I bolt.
Down the hallway.
Away from Samuel.
Away from those girls.
Away from the burning ache twisting in my chest.
I run like somehow, if I move fast enough, it’ll all just fall away behind me.
Like maybe I can outrun the pain.
But I couldn’t.
To be continued...
