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Chapter 151
🕑 Added 2021-10-04 09:27:12 +0000 UTCWhile Luna tried to figure everything out, cursing Aidan along the way, he slightly turned his bloody head and tilted it on its side:
—... and even a woman full of sadness and despair ... I admire my position. Is she possibly showing my future? - grinning, the magician shook his head:
“I don’t blame you. Luna… After all, I should be dead a long time ago. This chance is just another moment, every day I became more and more convinced of the mistake of choosing this fate or luck ... If it had not been for an attempt to find a goal, attachment and meaning, I would never have become attached to those people, I would never have felt warmth .. . They are naive, I tried to be the same, and it can look silly, but I really felt better. Though, not for long ... It was as if I was drawn to the living, and now I finally feel like the ground under my feet is frozen again. With a soft sigh, Aidan whispered:
- Thank you Luna, even if you despise me, I'm still grateful, in my past, miserable life, I would never have experienced this. I had no one, just a useless, gray life ... In the end, as it turned out, I did not change at all, only adapted. The essence is still the same, I remained on that balcony ... I bleed, I try not to look at the dead bodies in bloody sheets ...
Irene simply did not understand anything, at first he spoke to her, and now it was as if with someone else ... Besides, he spoke differently, now, his words sounded so cold and aloof. She had never heard such a gloomy voice filled with such terrible longing. After all these years in prison, she hardly understood the depths hidden in them ...
"What does it mean..."
However, Luna did not know how to answer, after all that was said, after each of her ridicule in his direction, he suddenly says something like that, without any hostility ... As in his first days in this world, he again became indifferent. Only that little girl Wendy made him make a strange decision, and now in another time, where he has nothing to return to, he has become that person again ...
No, even worse - he resigned himself and is not going to change!
“You're ... You're just pathetic. Dumb? What the hell are you talking about, you idiot? " - she snorted irritably:
“You're acting like a complete moron again! This is what I hate about you the most! "
- Ha ... I would find your swearing touching because of that enchanting voice, but, you are still the same bitch.
“Blocked! Damn magician, pull yourself together and get out of this hole! Finish that pregnant bitch behind the wall and then kill everyone here. This will suit you! If you do this, I will even let you call my name! "
The guy rolled his eyes in annoyance.
"Witch, I can call you whatever I want, I can even call you my slave!"
"What?! Yes, you decided to die a filthy worm ?! Yes, this witch is the strongest and greatest, I am a goddess! "
“You’re a slave,” Aidan whispered mockingly: “A slave, a slave, a slave ...
"Aaaa! Stupid freak! You bastard! Shut up!" - suddenly all the sounds were cut off, Luna forcibly cut the connection! She didn't want to hear these awful rudeness anymore! It looks like even this witch has a right ...
“This is what happens to girls who are used to solving problems by force. Real life sometimes spits in the face, and people throw mud ... In the end, you just endure and continue to live ... "- trying to get up, Aidan grimaced and fell again.
- Kha ... Damn ...
Although he had cheered himself up after an altercation with Luna, in the end, Aidan only sighed.
"I succumbed to Irene's feelings ... Yes, we are alike, I want to keep what I have, to return ... But I am unable to leave the cage, just like ..."
- Irene, - his voice instantly touched the soul of the sorceress.
- A? - the girl immediately shuddered from surprise. He suddenly called her by her name!
- With whom ... Who are you g-talking to and how do you know my ...
- Who cares? - the guy grinned: - You shouldn't take my chatter seriously. The world of eternity is just my utopia ... I died, that's why I say so, you are still alive, you carry a child under your heart. Even though it's in the past ... Everything will work out. I just need to wait ... - closing his eyes, he thought:
"Hmm, the outer wounds have almost regenerated, but my magic ..." - stretching out his hand, the wizard sighed, realizing that he could not even collect the piece of ice:
“I've damaged something ... Magic doesn't seem to answer my call. But, this is not for long ... "
- Wait? - Irene was surprised: - Y-what are you talking about?
He hesitated, but still answered:
- My wounds are healing, I am here temporarily and I am not going to change anything. You see ... I'm tired. Everything I've done so far doesn't matter. I joined the guild, tried to become a family with them, even began to have feelings for her ... In the end, I was just trying to become alive. All this is just a simple set of events, created by me, for the sake of this damned path of Life and Death.
Powerlessness was reflected in his voice again:
- I already said ... Salvation is only in eternity. But, this is a myth. My life is a foregone conclusion, in which I drove myself. Knowing about the future only adds to my path of hopelessness. I am trying to save myself, but ... I no longer know if I am capable and worthy for this ... What I want to protect so badly will in the end still be defiled by me.
His bitterness burst out endlessly ...
- My mother and sister ... I always wondered why I suddenly had this obsessive feeling of reunion? The answer is obvious ... I know the future, but I follow it, with only one proviso on my own success.
Looking around and as if piercing the wall with his eyes, Aidan whispered softly:
“I’m even worse than the General Irene who tortured you. After all, I do not want this as much as I want ... This feeling drives me crazy. After all, I'm like a demon eating not only my own children, but myself ...
- I ... I don't understand you at all, - with a trembling in her eyes, Irene also turned around, she tried to understand his words, but the more he spoke, the more sad and scary she became. All she understood was his state - it was as if he did not control his life, as if something controlled him, and he was just a spectator. Even if the words about eternity seemed like an attempt to stop everything ...
Smiling bitterly, the wizard turned away:
“It doesn't matter ... After all, like this witch said, I'm here temporarily.
"Fool!" Her annoyed tone was heard again:
“The arrow is with you, but without thinking to leave so easily! I don't know the conditions at all. Do you really think that everything is tied only to time? "
Surprisingly, she's been getting more talkative lately.
Annoys...
“Don't be silent to me here! You filthy magician! "
- Hmm, is it me fucking? If you weren't a nasty witch, I wouldn't have listened to all these insults.
Aidan spoke to himself again, surprising Irene once again.
"Who is he talking to?"
Luna snorted and simply ignored his words.
“You’re just an idiot if you decide that inaction is the best option. Although, it surprises me that you could feel such a strong influence on your mind ... You are not so bad for a person. But it won't help you. In any case, waiting here is just stupid, you have already finished off so many that the future has definitely changed. Your conversation with this girl alone changes a lot! " - Luna's voice changed to stinging:
“A cute little girl met a kind, cute boy in a dungeon ... All alone, oh, how glad she is! Ha, now she will remember you! Maybe even her not a daughter will be born, that will be a laugh! "
- Stop talking nonsense, since when does the floor change from chatter? If you decide to make fun of your perverted fantasies again, come up with the best time and place.
Aidan started to get annoyed again, because to some extent this witch was right. He, too, in the depths of his soul knew that he could not stand still, only now he did not understand if these were imposed thoughts based on feelings and his vicious magic! That is why he was acting like that now! I wanted to resign myself and surrender ... After all, how can you trust yourself after what happened? After the recent massacre, Aidan became even more convinced of who he really is. Poor magician! I succumbed to madness and decided to kill everyone! It was no longer just an appeal, but rather a consent ... He simply allowed himself to be led by his worst side, turned off his emotions and became a monster.
How could he make decisions at all now? He just wanted to sit out and return to his own time. He even tried not to think about Irene and her future. In the end, one wrong step and something will happen to Erza, and this girl in the next cell is generally a stranger to him. Even now, he felt that he secretly wanted to help and hurt her. These various desires just made him stop, so as not to make things worse. Now he realized that it was possible from the very beginning, the meeting of Wendy, Fairy Tail, Mavis ... All this is just the result of magic! Until that day, he thought the right things were right, because what is it like taking care of his little sister? What is it about the return of mother and sister? That's just, this is the point ... Now he did not understand what thought and feeling was real - it frightened him more than anything else.
