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A little update!
🕑 Added 2020-11-13 16:01:26 +0000 UTCCopied this off my Twitter BUT it’s a really important thing I wanted to have here & add to!
Just wanted to sit down and have a little 1-1 with you all about what’s been goin on lately- no obligation to read my little mental health ramble but I thought it was important since I’m able to now to kinda,, get what was happening off my chest!!
TW for mentions of mental abuse-
My activity has definitely dropped as of the past month and some but honestly for the first time in a long, long time, I can say with certainty I’ve felt like a living, functioning adult.
I’ve been living in a mentally and emotionally abusive home for a long, long time, which I was never aware of until it hit a peak. But it also never worried me work wise because essentially I overworked myself to cope. I was constantly churning out content and social media activity, my Patreon had like 2+ new posts daily, and I just never stopped, but it was draining. And it’s not healthy. While it was great from a business standpoint it was to put it bluntly, hollowing me out. All I did was work, and even my personal art just felt like a requirement to vary my content. Nothing I did was genuinely for me, because it was an escape for me. I’m living in a much, much better place right now, and I have no intent of going back to where I was. And I feel like I’m finally starting to heal and learn cope and while my nonstop churning out of content and social media interactions have slowed, it’s good. I needed it-so so badly. Anyone around me could tell I was wholly overworked lmao,,
I don’t want this to be completely an apology because while I am sorry for my drop in activity it was really important I did it. I do want to thank everybody for their patience with me while I even out my life and my mental health.
TLDR; I’m healing, I’m working, and the support means the world to me. I’m sorry it took me so long to properly address but where I was, I just couldn’t. I’m hoping now I’ll be able to start a healthier relationship with my job & social media, and give myself the breaks I need & deserve, finally. It’s long, long overdue. 💗
So what’s this mean for Patreon then? I want to even out my activity to a healthy consistent amount- something to benefit you guys as well as my mental health!! I’ve got a lot of things in the works (and I have for a bit- I’m very sorry that some things have had some delays on them my executive dysfunction is excellent lmao) but I want to get better at taking on less at a time and then getting those things done in good time so I don’t like. Collapse with the stress again ;;v;;
It’s a process, but I’m gonna do my absolute best to make everything much better in the long run. Having you all here supporting and encouraging me has been so so wonderful I can’t say how grateful I am to be able to wake up n check Patreon it gives me. So much serotonin
ANYWAY THANK U ALL FOR LISTENING I’m gonna work on my Finn art n do a mini Unus Annus catchup and I’ll catch y’all. LATER
Comments
Clover Pigeon
Take your time, man!! Please take care of yourself first and foremost 💖💕
Chanisty Davis
I was in a similar place before I moved; I know it can be one of hardest things to give yourself a break and be gentle to yourself. I’m really glad you’ve been able to get to a better place and take some time for yourself 🖤🤍! I’m so so happy for you !
Siren
Take you’re time dude!! We’re here to support you art or not 💖💖
