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🕑 Added 2022-06-08 17:26:56 +0000 UTCSheesh I'm talking a lot to you these days (´ ∀ ` *)
I'm afraid I must ask you for a bit of patience as I will be able to come back to rewards only later this month or in the middle of the next month.
In short, I have something come up concerning my family and to resolve this I had to spend money I didn't plan to spend. Sadly, I'm a jobless, worthless idiot, so my savings were barely enough for that. I have to be a bit more concentrated on commissions once again.
So I'm just asking you to be a little bit patient about that (￣▽￣*)ゞ
Thank you for your support and understanding (´ ε ` )♡
To those who like to read rants and get angry together with people:
Some time ago my biological father died, as he had no will, everything he had was split between his children and his wife. There's this Hollywood, no kidding, story about how the said wife was pretending not to know that my biological father had 3 daughters and was trying to hide his death for almost a year. Mind you, this bitch knew us all personally. But the police found my older sister and then she told us about that matter. And then there was a lot of lawyers' work etc. In the end, my older sis could get the inheritance for us.
And then happened another problem, my older sis is an alcoholic... you see where this is going. She had power of attorney for my other sis and me. She took all the money... and disappeared for a few months. When she appeared again, she was calling all drunk to our mom, telling her nonsense and well, all money disappeared. Not that I actually had an illusion I'll have those money, nor I ever wanted anything from my biological father, but let's say that event didn't help me with my trust issues.
Later my second sis visited my older sis, we all three live in different countries, and just confirmed everything. Also, she couldn't find out biological father's grave as his wife refused to tell her anything. And after she left back home, my older sister told us that she spent only her own money, and ours are blocked at the bank...
And I had to spend money on the tickets for the train, plane, and hotel to go there and once and for all figure the situation out. It cost a lot, I didn't plan to pay that and now I'm out of money :D
And I also owe my therapist for a few sessions as there was no way of paying her atm 'cause thank-you-the-dumb-war.
As I told above, I'm a jobless disappointment to my parents, so commissions are the only way atm.
So here we are. Crying in the shower, at a peak of the self-hate and self-depreciation, trying to put pieces of life together.
End of rant, thank you for reading xD
p.s. sorry for any mistakes, Engrish is my 3rd language, I usually try to write less
Comments
BanalRas
I'm sorry, this is my brain being mean to me sometimes. I usually keep it in but I wasn't in the right state of mind yesterday. *hug* Thank you <3 you're very kind
BanalRas
Thank you, you're very kind. <3 I appreciate that! I wish my brain would listen to you.
BanalRas
My ability to hold in the emotions isn't very healthy but somewhat useful atm xD Thank you... I wish there was a button "make everything good" in my life. I really hope I can have any commissions at all
Rebecca Hoben
YOU ARE NOT A DISAPPOINTMENT!! BAD ARTIST! YOU ARE A WONDERFUL AMAZING PERSON WHO CAN DO THINGS A LOT OF OTHER PEOPLE CANT! YOU MADE THESE STORIES AND THIS ART NOT YOUR PARENTS OR SISTERS, YOU!!! If I see you saying you are a disappointment I am coming back on here and yelling again *hugs* we all love you and we don't think of you as anything less then an amazing human being that can make incredible art!!! We are all here for you no matter what!!
Lynette
I am so sorry for this. I had a very similar situation a while ago. Take all the time you need in the world. You > everything else. Once I got my paycheck this month I'd love to commission in order to support. You also aren't worthless because you don't have a job, I know it can be a pain finding one. You have an amazing talent and I look up to you so much for how great you are. Keep your head high, all the luck to you 💜💜💜
BanalRas
Thank you, you're very kind to this piece of banana <3
Elizabeth Paige Salyers
I'm so sorry for everything you're having to go through. It sounds super stressful, which is why I stand by you in saying take all the time you need with commissions and rewards. I probably would've had a mental break down from all of that. So you are so strong for holding on as much as you have!
Blxrry_
I’m so sorry you’re having to go through all of that, that’s insane. I hope that things get easier for you. Please focus on yourself and take your time. You’re amazing and you got this <3
