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'Slow Dance Angry Tears'
🕑 Added 2020-09-24 01:36:52 +0000 UTCGreetings Creatures,
I was having a rough day and then had a bunch of kind people reach out to me, telling me they were also having rough days and well long story short I somehow got to listening to a new song I wrote and it actually amazingly made me feel a bit better... which is super weird, potentially bordering on some weird narcissistic territory there perhaps? I don't know, is it ok to feel healed by your own work? Sounds ok, but if I think about it too much it makes me feel strange LOL. Anyway I decided on the off chance that it could bring some joy to any of you I wanted to widen the circle of healing....
Last month my amazing Patrons unlocked a brand new Psychic Babble demo by helping me cross the 225 patron threshold. Now that they've had it for a bit I felt it was ok to extend it out to all of you.
Solo projects are such a weird thing to navigate. I haven't put out a full record in almost 10 years (holy shit I know) and while I have written tons of stuff, made lots of half finished demos but up until this last year I just haven't felt the same urgency to put out my own music in the way that I've felt it with CIrca. All that is to say that I am feeling it again and even if I don't put out an official "album" anytime soon it feels incredible to have TWO safe places to share things I am working on in the meantime. Thank you for your support of all that we do.
-C
text from original post below ( lyrics included )
tracked & mixed by me
mastered by Richie Taver
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This song is currently called 'Slow Dance Angry Tears'. Over the years I've spent a lot of time sitting with anger, sadness, frustration and trying to find ways to channel it into something loving. This song meditates on this concept with some new inspirations over the fresh hell we've all been living in. (lyrics at bottom)
This song is about the acceptance of one's sorrow & rage and not trying to force positivity or pleasantries during difficult times and instances of injustice. This is not to say that optimism or joy are not welcome in fact I think if there is a deeper lesson I have learned through activism, awareness etc is that you can't put yourself in a mindset of constantly separating these things without creating an active bubble of denial. There will always be a valid reason to be angry or devastated by sadness if we are looking at the world through a clear lens so our celebrations of humanity & life must exist simultaneously with the harshness. Note that when I say "someday we'll laugh about it" this is more so posed as a question with a raised eyebrow rather than an exclamation.
This song is for many people but especially my partner Sarah whom I can always count on to cry angry tears with me while at the same time asking me to slow dance in our kitchen.
I hope you like the song. Like most things I share here musically it is still a work in progress I am still learning things like mixing and doing my best to "master" these demos but eventually they will get a more pro approach, thank you for being my safe place.
xoxo
oh no not again
no more nightmares
another day of sunshine
Feels like acid rain
cause I’m falling deep
into a portal
& when I open my eyes
I still don’t recognize
the world I see (how could it be?)
you still want a dance
but the sky is on fire
everybody’s screaming
and I don’t know what to do
some day we ll laugh about it
for now
we’re crying angry tears
some day we’ll laugh about it?
oh Sarah
maybe light a candle
light a candle for me
for Elijah, Breonna
for every Black body
for every Brown body
as we’re falling deep
into that portal
& when we open our eyes
will we ever recognize
the world we see?
I can’t believe it
Comments
You're an absolute genius. I relate to what you said the song was about. You're not alone. You're one of the most eloquent people, like the rest of the band.
🖤🖤🖤
