Queenashii
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I AM ALIVE WOW (Life Update MOSTLY GOOD!)
🕑 Added 2024-10-22 23:34:08 +0000 UTCHi friends! It's been a doozy of a year & a half but I'm slowly returning to form :' ) for real this time!
TL;DR After working retail for nearly 8 months, I quit cause my mental health was suffering really bad. As of the new year, I've been doing a massive rework on my physical & mental health & I feel like I'm finally on the mend!
Physically I was at my unhealthiest the last 2 years, but right now is the best I've felt since I was a teenager. Figured going into my 30s deserved that much at least lol :' ). Mentally, I still have work to do but it's getting better!
Pretty sure it's undiagnosed ADHD cause I have really bad executive dysfunction & anxiety paralysis (amongst other stuff.) It feels like my attention span & drive aren't there but it's really is getting better. I guess I was just too stubborn to let this burn out run its course but I feel like I'm slowly getting back into it!
Twitter being a mess in many ways didn't help with that. If you have tried reaching out to me there at all recently, my account has been completely in shadowban shambles that I don't even get notifications. I think my account is sadly all but cooked completely atp. I've been trying to be more active on Instagram & Bluesky now. It's a start at least lol.
But I really did miss drawing. I'm glad the drive is slowly coming back. I'm still struggling with bad imposter syndrome & such but, I'm glad I'm finally taking steps needing to help myself. Rome wasn't built in a day, but I'm just so eager to be well again!
My sincerest apologies, truly. It probably came off really unprofessional but I had no intentions of such. It really just all became way too draining for me as I try to get my life back together. It's really hard but I feel like I'm finally getting strong enough to do it. But, that still doesn't fully excuse me being super quiet on here. I hope it doesn't happen again! Or that my anxiety prevents me from admitting low drips in my mood 🙏
PIN DESIGN UPDATES
Now that I'm slowly coming back to it, that means I can continue practicing enamel pins & making more! I miss making merch often but being financially strapped on top of feeling like my art looked really bad did a number on me. Still struggling with both but, we are persevering!
BREAKDOWN:
1.) ORIGINAL DESIGNS FROM NOW ON HERE! Nothing bad happened! But I want to make a lot more original designs! It's really fun & it'll help my portfolio/catalogue look more diverse. I have some original designs that I've been working on sporadically! I might do the occasional fanart pin here, but I might leave that mostly to online store preorders!
2.) PINKIE PIE PIN: She's finally done lmao. Took way too long but she's here! I really had to maneuver with this design. I constantly goof up the KISS rule for pins, so I kept having to rework her design; the price quotes given were higher than expected due to the complicated design. But it was finally done! Just need to ship them out to myself. Massive delays for this pin include: Draining retail job, design complications, pet cat becoming ill, me catching a bad cold that knocked me out for a month. Look at her in her glory though!
3.) PINKIE & VAPOREON PINS (cont...): Now that both pins are made, I can FINALLY ship these out to patrons! I've put them all aside to not get mixed up with my own con stock. I'm excited to finally share these with you all!
That's pretty much it! Thank you so much if you took the time to read this! It's been a long time coming. I will be answering any missed messages within the next couple of weeks.
Comments
Faelyn
I'm so glad you took time to heal and you're feeling better! I knew you were still alive (tumblr) but I was still a little worried cause you're usually more active
