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Meditation on Grief
🕑 Added 2022-05-06 13:39:50 +0000 UTCThanks to those that reached out over the death of my beloved friend. Marvin's original name was Friend actually! But my boyfriend at the time felt the kittens should have "proper" names, so Friend became Marvin.
Thanks for giving me some time and space to grieve. I had 5 days off and then when I planned to come back I was procrastinating with work and just couldn't start. I don't know why, then this video took two days to make, my editing software on my phone I still can't get my head around, so I'll make this in two parts. When things aren't flowing, sometimes it's a sign to just let go, which is always scary because i know it's at this point where patrons leave, but I have to listen to my body and i encourage you to do the same.
I don't know if you have lost someone or a being close to you before? Those who know me know that Marvin was the closest being in my life. And now he's gone I can see that I found him so much easier to love than a human! Humans come with baggage, beliefs, demands, insecurities and so many traits that you have to understand. Me and Marv chose to be together, so it was completely mutual.
I think I have grieved well, when you surrender to it, it just flows. I have nights when his absence is hard, and i seem to just want to be still in meditation and alone. Him leaving has freed me to travel, but for now, I just want to be still, with myself, and that feels just right to me.
