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I've spent my entire life until this point disconnected from..
🕑 Added 2023-12-13 05:45:25 +0000 UTC I've spent my entire life until this point disconnected from my body, every part of it. It's quite sad really... I viewed pleasure as a performance, mimicking what I saw on the screen and simply 'getting through it'I took on the label of a-sexual a little over a year ago and it was as this weight was taken off my shoulders. I no longer had to 'get through' sex.
Giving myself space from this pressure I placed on myself, sparked so much internal exploration. I started asking myself for the first time what I wanted. What did I actually like sexually? What didn't I like? I realised I had never been asked or had I ever answered those questions, not even with myself.
I spent time touching myself in new ways and let myself cry when it all felt like too much. But most importantly, I kept reminding myself I was safe inside my body, that I was in control.
This journey has been incredible so far and I'm so excited for the next chapter ✨️
