This slave would love to be perfectly accepting and proud of..
🕑 Added 2021-10-27 08:31:38 +0000 UTC
This slave would love to be perfectly accepting and proud of its hair, but it will be a struggle for a while. It is amazing how much a part of one's identity is often ties to their hair, and while this slave knows its Master owns this slave's 'identity' - its identity is to be its Master's property (with its own unique characteristics, history and personality as any living creature has of course) - it realises it must have a part of itself that doesn't quite accept that because its difficulty around this proves it, in a way. It saw itself in the mirror with hair as who it was and also perhaps it tied the years it spent, while its hair was growing, to the hair itself. The removal of its hair felt a little like the removal of those years. It is 'self' conscious and has no where to hide, especially with the long hair it has left in this plait (which its Master wants it to keep for a week. It wants to let down its fringe at least, but so far no-go). The plait, by the way, has a chain in it from the metal flogger which broke on this slave during a session over a year ago. It has been wearing a hat and for the first time this morning has had it off while it's been driving. When it first removed it's hat to its Master it cried, but He didn't seem to notice, He said it looked more like what it was, looked more like a slave, and it was on the floor as it answered 'more like Your slave, Master', then He used it - a deep comfort on a way. In the evening we were waiting in the car and in the dark He said 'you are a good slave'. It asked Him what made Him say that. 'you didn't want to get your hair shaved. You didn't want it at all. But you did it for me'. This slave has so many flaws, sensitivities, needs. It has a very long way to go and some things will still be very very difficult and it has bad days all the time. But yes it will do anything for its Master. As its purpose, as a gift, as something that is an honour to do. Thank you Master.
