Friday, October 13th 2023
Have I really not posted since Ju..
🕑 Added 2023-10-13 14:16:32 +0000 UTC
Friday, October 13th 2023
Have I really not posted since June? It feels like it's only been a blink. The days blur by at an exponentially faster rate than ever before. I've considered using this as a journal of sorts, but the problem is that I get excited about projects so much that I start things and hardly ever finish. Maybe I get lazy, maybe I'm afraid of commitment. Maybe I just like to start fires and see how long it takes for the passion to fizzle out into smoke.
Although I haven't been present, I still think about life as a "cam model" or whatever you want to call it, on the daily; it has undoubtedly altered my life. It's made me view my body and myself in ways I find fascinating. I've made friends, and I'm grateful for the extra perspectives and camaraderie. I've always wanted to turn OF into something, it feels like a waste to let it sit here. Frankly I'm tired of pictures and videos of the same things. Before camming (b.c. times lol) I avoided the camera at all costs. I was the one to take pictures of other people and not be in them.
Even though I don't like to be perceived physically, I admit that I do still want to be "seen". A presence of some sort feels right. I also want to provide something to you, the human reading this. What it is you would be interested in at this point, I do not know. I look forward to hearing about what knocks around in your head what topics you never hear about models discussing, being discussed here. My hope for this platform is to make space for it to be a source of inspiration, a sort of technological brainstorm-y discussion table. This is the latest idea I've had.
I've missed you, and I look forward to hearing your thoughts.
with care,
M
